song: mutual butterflies - ryan trey
4:44am
dear moon, i miss him so much that it's painful at this point. i keep reminiscing on the moments we shared together last winter and i continue to wonder if we'll ever become close again. he was one of my closest friends, though some would say that friends don't flirt like that. i remember the time i realised for sure that i liked him. it was simple, yet so surreal. all he did was scribble on the corner of my paper, his hand so close to mine, and as he withdrew the pen from my book he just smiled at me. in that moment it was just him and i and our stupid smiles. i was so happy and content with what we had. it's been 8 months since we last talked. i'd do anything to see him smile or laugh at one of my dumb jokes again. please talk to me rj.
