Tearing Apart

GUILT

Ally inspected her butt cheeks on her mirror. It'd been almost a week since Gus had spanked her and they were still a little bruised. They'd hurt a little at the beginning but the memory of the intense pleasure she had felt made them worth it.

Since the night he had been rougher and more dominant than he usually was, he had been pretty distanced. They texted, of course. But he felt different.

She winced running her fingers through the marks that his fingers had left on her hips.

She was stomped with work at the office, so the week had been a blur. Friday had finally rolled in and she was drained. She put on some panties and got dressed for work.

The entire drive there she spent it roaming over her worries about Gus. She'd started to feel doubtful of him. It was as if she didn't know him anymore. She began to think that maybe he'd lied to her... She couldn't help it. What if he told her he was an engineer when he really wasn't?

She was not sure why she even thought that way. But once the idea creeped into her mind, she just couldn't shake it out. It kept growing and rooting, clouding her perception.

She powered through her shift like a pro, keeping up with her boss's demands and helping the team out in every way she could. By the end of the day everyone was tired but satisfied and she was ready to go home

-Wanna go for a drink? – Sara asked grabbing her purse and stopping by her desk – We're going to that cozy bar Adrian had his birthday party at

-Nah, I'm just tired... I think I'll pass. See you Monday

-Ok hun, see you!

She got on her car and started driving home. It was rush hour and Ally soon found herself stuck among endless car lines. She sighed and waited for a while, slowly moving along with the other vehicles. It frustrated her and made her want a drink... badly.

After fifteen more minutes of snail progress she'd finally made up her mind. She took the first exit she could and drove herself downtown to a dark little bar.

"Don't drink and drive"- she told herself. But she promised she'd just have one.

It was early, so the place was mostly empty. She approached the counter and sat, wiggling her legs absentmindedly.

-May I have a double tequila shot, please? – she asked the bartender

-Sure- he replied, pouring her a generous amount and handing it to her

-Put that on my tab Arnold- Ally heard a manly voice say and she turned to find a tall handsome guy sitting a few spots away from her.

She smiled at him- Thanks – she raised the shot in his direction and then took a small sip

He immediately made his way to sit beside her

-So what's your name, gorgeous?

-Ally, what's yours?

-Caleb- he smiled

-Nice to meet you Caleb

They chatted for a few minutes, mostly nonsense, until he made a move for her leg and gave it a little squeeze

She turned to look at him surprised and at that very moment, her cellphone vibrated on the counter. She quickly grabbed it and unlocked it.

-Hi princess. I'm making dinner, I have a surprise for you so let yourself in when you get here ok?- she read.

The hand on her thigh made its way to her crotch and she stood up immediately, panicking.

-I have to go. Thanks for the drink!- she muttered leaving her shot half empty on the counter and bolting for the door.

She started driving. Her head was a mess. "What the fuck was she doing?" "Why in hell did she let him touch her?"

Her mind whirled with all her thoughts "What the fuck is wrong with me!" she internally yelled at herself.

She arrived to an intersection. The light turned green so she kept on driving. When she reached the middle of it, she saw the bright lights on her right side quickly approaching at the edge of her sight. It was too late.

There was nothing she could do. A black truck collided abruptly into her passenger side and sent her spinning around into a crazy loop. She heard the glass shattering and she felt her head hit something. Then everything went black.

When she came back to her senses she wasn't sure how much time it had passed.

-Miss, are you ok? – she heard a man calling

She opened her eyes and found two random dudes standing by her window – her head hurt like shit and when she went to touch her forehead, blood stained the palm of her hand.

-Miss, don't move! You'll be fine. We've already called an ambulance, they're on their way

She reached for her purse, and extracted her phone, unlocking it and tossing it to one of the guys -Please!- she begged- call Gus Green and tell him. Please! Please!

She didn't want to hear his voice. She felt so guilty. She knew this was all her fault. Karma had come to bite her in the ass and she deserved it. She cried bitterly, feeling her tears fall on her lap.

Gus found her sitting on the back of the ambulance, her phone to her ear, as she finished talking to her insurance company.

He rushed to her – Babe! What happened?- He asked worriedly- Are you ok?

She looked at him and her tears welled up in her eyes

-I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Oh Gus, I'm so sorry! - she screamed- It's my fault, I deserve this!

-Calm down!- he replied trying to pull her close to him

-No!- she yelled, fighting him back- You don't understand! I was in a bar with a dude before! And he touched me!

Gus froze and she broke down, crying her soul out.

-Sir, I'm gonna need you to step back- a paramedic said, grabbing his shoulder- she's got a concussion and you're upsetting her. We need to take her to the hospital to make sure she is ok. You can follow us there if you want.

And just like that they lifted her into the ambulance and closed the doors. Leaving him standing in the middle of the road.