Kink (Completed)

Chapter 24: Truth

  "You know why I hate Yoongi so much? It's because he knows you so well. Yes! I'm pissed he trained you, livid even. He knows everything about you, I don't know your favorite color or your shoe size. The thought of someone knowing you better than me pisses me off. 

  I was already on edge, I had come so close to kissing you after we had talked. I'm glad you walked away because my control was becoming very thin. Of course, we ended up arguing, you told me to call Jenni I snapped and kissed you. You wanted me to call someone to fuck when I could verily control myself around you, you were the only one I wanted and I snapped. I said it was a mistake and showed you away, trust me I felt like an ass for doing it but it wasn't the right time.  I drove around the block and came back to find Yoongi in our house, of course I'm jealous as hell of him. I wanted to shoot him where he stood, when I realized you were leaving with him, I panicked. I called your name but you wouldn't even look at me, I thought I had lost you forever. 

  I vanished for four months hoping any day you would call me and ask me to come home, I hoped that you missed me. I was destroyed, I cried myself to sleep every night, if it wasn't for Namjoon or Hoseok shoving food at me, I would have starved. I couldn't take it any longer and went home, seeing you in my hoodie made me insane, but I was too weak to do anything about it. Having you take care of me made me so happy, it proved you still cared. I couldn't let you go, having you curl up next to me, I was finally able to relax and sleep. I asked why you were wearing my hoodie, you stated it was because you missed me. I was angry you hadn't called but when you cupped my face and asked me to come home I melted, I couldn't stay away if I wanted too. 

  I needed to feel your body against mine, so I held you close, you said you had an appointment and needed to leave for two hours. I got up and got dressed, I decided that I would make us a nice dinner though I had no idea how to cook. I figured I could it wasn't too complicated. When you got home and the fire alarms are blaring you rushed into the kitchen in that red lingerie and heels, your beautiful skin marked up by him. I felt betrayed, I thought you had felt the spark between us only to have you be intimate with another, I shut down I couldn't look at you, my heart hurt too much.

  Your nineteenth birthday was very important day for me, I was going to confess my feelings to you and ask you to be my sub. I was so excited to tell you everything, but you confessed you had been trained by another, the pain in my chest nearly killed me. This perfect image of us together in my head shattered. I flipped out and scared you but fuck you look so beautiful in submissive posture, I had to walk away the pain was too great to bear and I would never want to hurt you and I knew my words would slice deeper than a knife. 

  I let you work at Kink but never planned on letting a single dom near you, I made damn sure everyone knew you belonged to me, you just didn't know it yet. I still planned on confessing to you, I just needed some time to calm down. 

  You had the dream about your mom and I figured fuck it you hated me anyway so why not tell you everything, of course you were upset. When you started packing your things I was trying to remember to breath, you were completely naked and I wanted to pin you to the bed and fuck you till you screamed. It was very distracting and I wasn't lying when I said I was enjoying the view. When you said you used to think you were in love with me but not to worry it was dead now, those words shot right to the heart. I told you I loved you more than you would ever know, I don't think you understood what I meant. Then you asked me to kiss you, fuck! I wanted to so badly, but I couldn't.

You probably wonder why I kissed you in the locker room, well you had just blurted out that Yoongi had trained you and were adamant that you needed to go take care of him, I felt you slipping through my fingers. I kissed you pouring everything I had in that kiss. I planned on confessing when you came home, but you didn't for two fucking weeks. I convinced myself you didn't want me, so I ignored you because my pride was in shreds.

  Yesterday I nearly lost you, fuck! When I found out you were in the middle of everything I nearly lost my shit. I had never been so grateful to have Yoongi on my payroll, I know how good he is with a gun I trust that he would protect anyone in the club. After everything is over I realized there's no more waiting I have to confess now. Every time I met your eyes, the look you were giving me nearly did me in. You were covered in blood, but you had never looked more beautiful. I take that back, underneath me is where you truly look your best."

  I brushed the tears from my eyes "of course you would finish with that, you're such a guy" "I didn't tell you all that to make you cry" I sniffled and wiped my face "I hurt you over and over again, why didn't you move on?" he kissed my temple tenderly "because there was never anyone but you" I sat up on my knees wrapping my arms around his neck, I kissed him tenderly. I pulled back "I don't know how I got so lucky, I still feel like this is a dream" He lifted me up pulling me closer, resting his head on my shoulder "I woke up with you in my arms, today couldn't be more perfect. If today is a dream I never want to wake up."

  We held each other for a bit, suddenly his hand slid down to squeeze my ass "ok, time to go" he laughed "I know your sore but I couldn't help but give it a squeeze" I snorted rolling my eyes "you're an ass man I will have to get used to that" I climbed off his lap and headed to the door "when the ass looks like yours, hell yes I'm an ass man" I giggled shaking my ass. He growled as he stood up, shrieking I took off running with him hot on my heels.  

A/N: Sorry guys, I feel like this chapter isn't great. I currently have Bronchitis  and feel like death but I wanted to update for you.