Kink (Completed)

Chapter 27: Unwanted

Jin's POV

  It's been over a week since the incident at the club, I sit alone in the dark. I can't bear to look at myself anymore, all I do is cry. The image of a perfect life shattered like a broken window, who would desire someone with scars? At twenty-five, they already considered me old and now with my body permanently scared it is all over. I called and quite Kink yesterday, Master Jeon had not taken it well, he had tried to talk me out of it but I stood my ground. 

  I'm lying in bed the curtains tightly drawn as I cry into my pillow "Jin, you can't keep doing this" I gasp seeing Jimin standing in the doorway "I picked the lock because everyone is worried about you" I sat up wiping my eyes " I don't want to talk to anyone including you, so please leave" he walked over and sat on the bed next to me "you don't understand! He took everything away from me. I need to get used to being alone, what dom is going to want me?" 

  He rolled his eyes "are you serious right now? What about the sexy dom that comes numerous times a day trying to get you to let him in, the dom that looks like shit because he is so worried about you" I shook my head "Master Kim pities me nothing more, he witnessed my torture, of course, he is going to feel compassion towards me" Jimin laughed "Namjoon, is not a soft man he speaks his mind if I was in your place he would kick the door down and drag me out of bed telling me the pity party is over. You've seen him scolding other doms he can be pretty intimidating."

  I lowered my head tears burning in my eyes " don't get my hopes up, I've loved him for so long he always chose the others over me. It hurt so bad, that's why I didn't play with any of the doms I was waiting for him. He ignored me and chose all the younger prettier subs to play I realized it would never be and turned to Master Jeon, after we started playing together Master Kim became hostile towards me. He was always snapping at me for something, it hurt so much. I thought about quitting because why stay and let him trample on my heart even more, but it is the only time I am able to see him" I stared vacantly out the window as I spoke lost in thought "I was jealous" the deep voice that definitely did not belong to Jimin rang out causing me to whip my head around, Master Kim stood in the doorway.

  I'm shocked to see Jimin gone and him in my room "where's Jimin?" "he had me on the phone the entire time you spoke, when I arrived he left." He walked over to the side of the bed "Jin since the moment I met you I wanted to make you mine. You were the first sub we hired and the club was new, I watched you from afar. You are so beautiful and perfect, every dom in the club is in awe of you. I convinced myself that you would never want a dom like me, I'm big and clumsy, I break things all the time. I turned to other subs, but none of them were you. I was devastated the first time I saw you go to Jungkook's room with him, I knew you both were doing it to help each other out, but someone that wasn't me was touching you and I hated that. I was jealous of how close you and Jungkook are that's why I was such a dick to you. Jin I don't care about your scars, to me you are the most stunning creature I have ever laid my eyes on and it would make me the happiest man alive if you would wear my collar" he drops to his knees next to the bed and took my hand " so Jin please make me the happiest man in the world and agree to be mine." 

  I have tears streaming down my face, but these are happy tears. I nod as I throw myself into his arms, he holds me gently not wanting to hurt my injuries. He pulled back and placed a tender kiss on my lips.  After the incident, I never thought I would ever be happy again, but that night as I fell asleep in my love's embrace I realized that my scars told a story, a story of pain and survival. I'm a survivor, my scars are nothing to be ashamed of if anything they are a badge of honor. People may look away in disgust because of my scars, but I have a man that loves me exactly how I am and to me, that is all that mattered. I know for the rest of our lives he will spend it proving to me just how beautiful in his eyes I am, and I will spend the rest of my life showing him just how much I love and cherish him. 

  It took almost losing each other to bring two hearts together, now they beat as one. The melding of two souls, never to be cast in darkness for they have found their flame to guide their way. 

  A/N: I had a wild youth and bear a lot of scars to prove it, also I use to self-harm so I have those scares as well. Scares truly do tell a story of courage and survival. My scares bring me comfort, they remind me of when I was crawling through hell though I seemed to see no end there is light at the end of every tunnel, even if we cannot see it. If you have scares don't hide them wear them like a badge of honor, you're beautiful and if someone can't see your beauty then they are not worth your time, because my friend you are a warrior and warriors deserves nothing but the best.