Kink (Completed)

Chapter 28: Hurt

  I have fucked up, but for the life of me, I couldn't think how. We've only had sex the one day since then he has not tried for more, even when I pranced around in my lacey briefs he didn't bat an eye and told me to put some clothes on so I wouldn't get cold. He still gives me kisses and cuddles, but it never goes further than that and I'm frustrated.

  I'm also hurt that he has collared someone else, don't get me wrong I love Taehyung he's sweet as can be, though we are the same age he is more like a little brother. He's a little, and there's not much of a difference between little TaeTae and Taehyung. The collar is for his protection it's called a house collar meaning he is under Jungkook's care, no one can touch him without talking to him first. People tend to take advantage of littles so it is necessary but it hurt nonetheless.

  I asked him what I should wear and he said to continue wearing what I have been, so I'm still getting propositions from other doms. It doesn't seem to bother him he never said anything about it. I couldn't help but think maybe he's like the rest, he got what he wanted and now he's done. Why did he go to so much trouble to confess if he just wanted my body? I'm so hurt and confused, I had no idea where we stood, were we a couple? He hasn't asked me on a single date and never called me his boyfriend, so what am I supposed to think?  

    IK turned around and bumped into someone "I'm so sorry" "holy shit! Jimin!" I look up to see a tall beautiful Native American man standing in front of me, his shoulders are massive with black hair down to his waist. There's something familiar about his sparkling whiskey-colored eyes. "Do I know you?" he grinned "I took your virginity I didn't think forgetting me would be that easy" I felt my face heat up as I gasped " Jacob?" he grinned hugging me tight, picking me up he twirled me around " I've been searching everywhere for you" he sat me back on my feet " I want to tell you the truth about me leaving" I walked over to Taemin "I'm taking a break" I grabbed Jacobs arm and dragged him to the breakroom.

  We took a seat around the table "what do you mean?" he sighed "your guardian approached me one day after football practice, he had a proposition for me. He would pay for my college plus a little extra for living expenses as long as I went to the US. I wanted to go to college but my family is extremely poor and they couldn't afford it I applied for so many scholarships and even though my grades were good I didn't get a single one, so I was ready to give up my dream of being an architect. He told me to lie to you and say it was a scholarship, I wanted to tell you the truth, I really did. I figured we could make the long-distance work but you broke up with me, I was crushed that you didn't want to wait for me, I figured since we broke up you wouldn't care about the truth but it ate at me."

  I had tears streaming down my face, the pain of betrayal hung heavy in my chest. I had been so in love only for it to be torn away by someone I thought cared about me, he had even held me as I cried over Jacob. His apology all those years ago made since now, he had been the one to make me cry. I heard the door open, hurriedly I wiped my eyes and turned to look. Jeon stood in the doorway, his eyes going from me to Jacob. I stood up " I need to get back to work" who's this?" he gestured towards Jacob " Jacob" I saw him visibly pale "Jimin" I shook my head "not here Jeon" I walked by, he grabbed my arm. I jerked away "don't touch me!" he sighed "Jimin, we need to talk about this" I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him " like I said not here. I need to get back to work, Jacob leave your number with the bartender I'll call you later" I walked out of the room not glancing at Jeon once as I did.

  Jeon sat at the bar watching every move I made, by the tense set of his shoulders he's on edge. He should be he betrayed me in the worst way possible, it wasn't that I had any feelings for Jacob I did love Jeon with everything I had but did he even feel the same way.

  "Jimin are you ok? You look like you're about to cry" I smile at Taehyung "I'll be ok, I just have a lot on my mind" he hugged me tightly " I'm always here if you need to talk" I kissed his cheek making him blush "thank you, you know whoever becomes your daddy is going to be a lucky guy" he giggled "want to know a secret?" I nodded "I like someone" he whispered in my ear, he pulled back his smile fading away and sadness taking its place "he doesn't pay any attention to me though so it's a lost cause, he doesn't want a sub that acts like a little kid" Tae, tell me who maybe I can help" he nodded towards the bar. I turned and looked, at first, I thought he was talking about Jeon but then I  realized who he was talking to "Hoseok?" he nodded biting his lip as his cheeks turned pink.

  Hoseok is a natural caretaker he would be perfect for Tae, I grinned "be ready" I walked over to Hoseok "Tae is really upset, someone scared him earlier and he's having a hard time staying big" Hoseok rushes a way to comfort Tae.

   Last call is called, we start cleaning as security ushered people out a short time later. Finally, it is time to go home. I head to the locker room to change into my clothes, Jeon walks in and sets next to me " I know you're mad but please just listen to me" he reaches out and touches my arm, I jerk away "don't fucking touch me, now please leave so I can change." With a sigh, he got up and walked out of the room. A few minutes later I walked out fully dressed, he is waiting for me by the door. We walk out and climb into his car, it is warm outside he must have started it while I was dressing.

 The drive home is silent we are both lost in our own thoughts, finally, we pull into the driveway. I climb out and head to the door, he followed behind and unlocked it. We step inside, he flips on the lights " Jimin" I turn to him " I was destroyed when he left me, do you have any idea the shit I did to try to forget him, I drowned myself in alcohol and sex. I let anyone that wanted me fuck me, it hurt so bad I wanted to die. You know I thought about killing myself, how would you have felt coming home to find my lifeless corpse in a pool of blood because I slit my wrist" he reached out to touch me and I dodged away, he lowers his hand to his side "I was scared of losing you, I felt you slipping through my fingers. Yes, that was selfish of me but I did it for you also, you would have been stuck working menial jobs, verily making enough for food or rent. I didn't want that for you, you would have been miserable."

  I shook my head "it wasn't your place to make that decision for me, it's actually funny I thought you knew me rather well but I guess I was wrong. You see as long as I have someone by my side that I love I don't care if we're rich or poor all I care about is the person by my side. So what if we had struggled, I loved Jacob with all my heart as long as I was with him I would have been happy."

  "do you still love him?" he softly whispered the look of defeat in his eyes made my chest hurt "I love you but I think we need to take a break it will give us time to think" "Jimin please" he dropped to his knees "I can't lose you, tell me how to fix this and I will. Please just don't leave" I shook my head " I need some time" I turned and headed up the stairs to my room, quickly I packed a bag. Grabbing my duffel bag I headed downstairs, he sat of the couch with his head in his hands. I rushed out the door with my heart in my throat, quickly I unlocked the car door. I threw my bag in the back and climbed in, I sat there for a moment. I couldn't hold the tears anymore, I sat in my car as my heart broke in two.