Fake smiles.// Colby Brock fanfic

What?

Luna's POV
"I-I" Colby stuttered nervously. I looked at him waiting for him to continue. "Fuck!" He said and sat on his bed. "Colby just say what you wanted to say." He groaned. "I uh, I'm not so sure about Lily anymore.." he looked down. Wait what? I looked at him confused "what do you mean? You looked so happy with her just now" he sighed. "Luna I don't know! I just don't feel that spark with her anymore! I don't want to fucking hurt her like I hurt you. I'm so sorry Luna, I fucked up with you I shouldn't have done what I did. I know you probably hate me but not a day goes by without me feeling so fucking guilty about what I did, I hate myself for it. And what happened in the kitchen I don't think it was a mistake." Colby looks up at me. "Luna, I don't know what to do! My head is exploding! Fuck!" Colby ran his hand over his face. I hate seeing him this way. I sat next to him on the bed and wrapped my arms around him bringing him closer to me. "You just need to really think about it. Don't beat yourself up over it Colbs! Whatever you decide I'm sure Lily will be supportive of it!" He nuzzled his head deeper into my neck. I looked down at him and looked into his beautiful blue eyes. "You're going to be okay." I said and and played with his hair.

~later~
Colbys POV
Having that talk with Luna earlier really helped me. I know I treated her horrible but she still made sure I was okay. That's what I like about Luna she's always so caring! Okay time to focus on what I feel towards Lily. Lily is beautiful don't get me wrong, I just don't feel anything towards her anymore. In the beginning it was amazing she treated me so well.

I'm just so overwhelmed by all of this and I have no clue what to do! It's like I'm drowning in my own fucking thoughts! I don't want to hurt her, but I also can't continue going on like I still like her. I wish Luna was still here to comfort me but she left an hour ago. I could call her. I glanced at my phone, no I can't! She is really good at giving hugs- No! You hurt her once too just like you're about to do to Lily. Stop! Stop! Stop! I can't do this, I need to calm down. My head wouldn't stop saying all these stuff. Colby you're a piece of shit. Colby you're a waste of space even Luna can agree with me on that. I started throwing things everywhere, shattering a whole bunch of glass as I threw pictures at the wall "Make it stop! Make it fucking stop!" I sobbed and slide down the wall.

Luna's POV
I sat in my room trying to find something to keep me busy. But my mind kept thinking about Colby and how miserable he looked. I hope he's doing okay now. I frowned just thinking about how his face looked. I honestly feel bad for him even though he fucked me over he's still human who has feelings. I should hate him and want nothing to do with him but he needs me right now. He has a lot of thinking and decision making to do.

I finally just decided to watch some tv and eat junk food. I turn on the Bachelor I love this show! I spent hours watching the bachelor and eating that I didn't even realize how late it was. Ughh I still have to clean my room and do laundry. I turned the tv off and started cleaning up all the snacks I ate. After cleaning up my mess I went upstairs to start cleaning my room. To put me in a cleaning mood I decided to put on some music.

I was finally finished doing everything I needed to do for the night. I was going to take a shower but I'm too tired to I'll just take one in the morning. I walked into the bathroom deciding that I should at least wash my face and brush my teeth. I quickly washed my face and brushed my teeth, I then threw on some comfy clothes and went to bed.

A/n
All done! How did you guys like finally experiencing Colby at his lowest? I actually really like this chapter! Well hopefully I can update soon my schedule is so messed up!