A SECOND CHANCE WITH JAY [ONGOING]

JAY 15

Renn p.o.v

Running away was always my loophole in ending any undecided dilemma's in life, the relationship I had with Daniel is never to be compared to what I have with Jay,

"You did what? Renn you realize he's going to debut soon" I suck on my thumb the nth time before guiltily crossing my arms

"I-I know, but I can't keep running away when I know for a fact that I just want to be with Jay"

Nick and Jess have been with me since then but since I ran away I haven't seen them too and I choose to do it that way to prevent myself from being distracted from everything, pretty selfish huh? But that just happened.

"So how long is this relationship going on?"

"Uhh since I was in high school?"

I honestly innocently answered Jess, but he gave me an annoyed look that I had to start counting since the last time I answered Jay again

"Uhh, 8months? I think?"

Jess sighs disappointedly; standing up before sparing me  an unbelievable look 

"Did it ever occur to you that it would not risk not only Jay's safety but for yours as well?"

I hitch a full inhale before Nick could butt in

"Jes maybe it wouldn't be that worse, you know Renn can wh --"

"Can what Niki?"

I look at Niki expecting a rebut but she failed to reason out, 

"See? no one seemed to understand how concerned I am in this situation"

Niki and I stayed put before hearing Jess sighed loudly before clapping once

"Just be careful" I look at her the second time before jumpin' in to hug her

After the fight Jay and I had, we took another chance to try and it did work. Now we're on our 8months together, almost a year done. Daniel never came to see me again nor his group but is living near Belift Building. The group also followed to live with him after a couple of months.

The two groups are taking well their relationship, they all know about me and Jay and that's it. everyday Jay would come and visit but never really sleep-over as their manager checks with them early every day

"Renn are you ready?" I sigh heavily gripping hard on my guitar before smiling at them.

I blink a couple of times as the ceiling lights hit my eyes; covering it with my other hand I further my way to the stage before smiling towards the panel of judges

"Introduce yourself"

I bowed down 90 degrees before smiling "Annyeonghaseyo Renn imnida, I'm a trainee for almost a year now under the agency of SM Entertainment, and what I'm about to perform is my own original song entitled Older"

Seeing the judges nod was my cue to start, while I glance towards my manager at the side sh raised her fist with mouthing 'fighting ' to me. I inhaled a sharp inhale before breathing all excess air 

I used to shut my door when my mother screamed in the kitchen

I turn the music up, get high, and try not to listen to every little fight

Cause neither one was right I swore I'll never be like them, cause I was just a kid back then

The older I get, the more that I see

my parents aren't heroes, they're just like me 

Loving is hard, it don't always work