A SECOND CHANCE WITH JAY [ONGOING]

JAY 16

Jay p.o.v

We chatted from the dorm all the way to the studio as if I were away for so long, we see Hyung from the glass upon arriving before he welcomed us and acknowledge me especially

The members hung their head low feeling sorry for what happened yesterday,

"Jay" hyung twitch his head in a certain direction before some members tapped me from  my back

I sat down as hyung checks the hallway for people before fully shutting the door

"So, you decided to be humane about all the things?"

Wetting my lips in nervousness; I look at hyung apologetically before sighing hard

"i- I wanted to do the right thing hyung, you know someday when I and her meet it'll be a new journey for us"

"yeah and that journey will be way way far from here you are right now, 'cause you're just starting"

I nodded before standing up about to exit until I felt hyung's hand stopped me from the door

"Jay, I'm not the enemy here okay? I want to keep you safe"

I wanted to be safe too and Renn as well, but this problem might get out of hand if I get too comfortable with it and if I let it slip my hands it might ruin my career, or worse it might jeopardize Renn's safety as well

"I understand hyung" we both hug and I continued the day as nothing happened.

Somehow the thought that Renn and I can't be together anytime sooner really bugs me and sometimes it kicks me to my edge

"Jay what if we do the circle move" Heesung 

I start to pout thinking of a more efficient way to move before giving a sketch of what our positions will be

The members reviewed it by then and happily agreed to my idea.

"Lunchtime!" hyung announced and we all jumped from our positions to devour the fresh baked goods delivered

Taking a sip from the soup I see Heesung hyung smiling from ear to ear; gazing straight at me

"ahh ~ hyung hajimaa"

The members felt it was one way to tease me while Heesung hyung stood up sitting down next to me

"I'm just so glad you're back"

After eating we all packed our stuff before returning to the gym to let go of all the small fats we gained from lunch

It was hard trying to start anew, sometimes I would just pick my phone about to call Renn thinking she'd answer me because that's what I rarely do. It has been hard and I wanted to do my best in the future so as much as I don't want to move on...... I did anyway

I was busy doing my final squats before rushing towards the bathroom to have a quick bath when I overheard someone talking

It wasn't my intention to eavesdrop but that voice sounded just significantly familiar to me

"I know baby I'm so sorry about this. Jay is getting all the attention and since I've got a hunch I might be doing the leader position it's time two giving me pressure"

"I might not be able to see you for a couple of weeks. But don't worry I'll find a way"

"I promise. I love you"

My ears perked at Jungwon's last line. He opened the door to see me just near the cubicle he used

His pupils start dilating before I can even push him back to his cubicle