So, I barely got any sleep last night. It was quiet in Natalie's house but that wasn't the problem. The problem was the fact that this was something I wasn't used to. I wasn't used to going to bed without being yelled at or hit. It was something completely new. When you go through something every day, even for a year, it tends to become your new normal. How you expect to live every day for the rest of your life. I got out of that relationship and Cole got arrested all in one day and it was just so fast that I didn't have time to really comprehend what that meant. And my mind was in over drive all night. I cried, I smiled, I felt the relief fill my body completely. It was a great feeling. I felt happier already. I felt like the start of a different person and I just wanted to keep exploring who that person was and what she was like.
I got out of bed around seven and took a long shower. The bruises were still there and they still hurt quite a bit but not as bad as yesterday which I was thankful for. Hopefully I could dance a little easier now. I could smell, while I was in the shower, that Natalie was cooking breakfast so I jumped out and got dressed in my workout clothes for today. Grey leggings with a black sports bra and a black long sleeve shirt over top. I slipped on my socks and tennis shoes before walking out of Natalie's guest room and down to the kitchen. "Good morning." Natalie said as she set a plate down at the island. There was a glass of orange juice sitting there with it. I smiled at her as I sat down in front of the plate. "How'd you sleep?"
"I didn't really." I said. "I guess I'm just adjusting to the new normal."
"I'm sorry." she said. "I'm sure it'll get easier. You're fresh out of a bad relationship. I can't imagine you're gonna feel normal the day after."
"It's just like a bad song I can't get out of my head." I told her. "And I don't wanna listen to it anymore."
"How are you feeling physically? Do the bruises still hurt?" she asked.
"Yeah. They're gonna hurt for a while." I said before I took a bite of the bacon on my plate. "On the plus side, I had a lot of time to think and actually feel it all night and I feel like I can breathe for the first time in a long time. I feel happier than I did yesterday. And I can't help but be thrilled with that."
"You should be." she said. "It's amazing that you feel this good right now at all. You should be thrilled with all the progress you make." I smiled. "So, what time do you have to be at the studio?"
"In an hour." I said. "I'm a little nervous for some reason."
"Maybe it's because you like him and you know it." she said with a smile. I shook my head and rolled my eyes playfully. "Are you gonna ask him about that movie?"
"No." I said. "I don't even think I wanna know if he's seen it. I mean, he's my dance partner. We have to see each other every day and I don't want it to be awkward. Knowing if he's seen me naked on TV is just not something I need to know."
"Maybe you should just get naked for him." she said.
I reached over the island and smacked her in the arm as she laughed. "That is not happening." I said. I took a drink of the orange juice and then another bite of my pancake before standing up. "I gotta get to the studio. I'll see you later." I walked out of the house and got in my car before driving away. Since I didn't eat much at Natalie's house, I decided to stop at a drive thru breakfast place and grab a couple breakfast burritos for me and Gleb before driving the rest of the way to the studio. I mean, I just thought I'd be nice. Besides, he deserved it with all he's done for me. From teaching me dances to helping me out in my personal life, he's been a great influence so far and he deserved something for that. Yes, I mean food which could be something to laugh about but it's the only thing I could think of right now.
