I'll cry if that is what you want . I'll kill myself if that is what you need . But please.............. let me be ! ~lili
lili a 14 years old girl who lost her whole world to the God's . she thinks it's a dream ...No a nightmare , opens her eyes b...
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It was a long way to my school,everything seemed so good and peaceful
It was Monday and I was walking to my school, it was a beautiful day, cold wind blowing, it was dark not so dark as the beautiful clouds had covered the whole sky with its dark yet pleasant Aurora was visible on everything, I was walking down the street that was now 8 blocks away from the first bus stop.
Everything was perfect just perfect but suddenly a weird feeling hit me real hard it was like if mind my body was telling me to walk fast, as fast as you can, at first I thought that someone was following me but I couldn't hear any footsteps or anything behind me but still just to assure my self I turned around to see nobody behind me but then once again my gut feeling started to tell me to run I felt scared really scared but now, even more, it felt like someone was talking to me like literally, I could hear voices
.........."RUN HURRY RUN " ...............
it was voice a voice right next to my left ear, I quickly snap my head towards my left side but no nothing, no one was there ... just a split second later I hear it again
............"RUNNNNNNNNNNNNN".............
and that was it I started to run as fast as I could, clutching on to my back bag a shard as possible I was so concentrated on running that I had forgotten how to breathe, I had stopped breathing. I didn't know where I was going it was as if my feet were taking me where ever it could, I was terrified, really terrified.
I stopped running when I had this weird feeling inside of me telling me to stop and so I did. I wasn't in the right state of my mind, I couldn't tell where I was. after some time which seemed like an hour, I realized that it was a busy street, lots and lots of people and cars, I had no, literally no idea about how the hell I got here, it was an unknown place to me until it hit me it was the place near the park, but how the hell did I end up here, I know I was running but how did I get here as this place is like literally 30 mins away from my home. I was thinking when again I heard that strange unknown voice ........................................"WALK".................................................... and so I did, it was weird, really weird, I couldn't identify it at all I couldn't tell what it was, it wasn't a girls voice nor was a man's voice , it was weird, or was it just me. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? .................................................."WALK".................................................. my eyes shot open IT-IT ISNT ME OR are IT? that was all that was going through my mind. I was walking without realizing, by now it was a busy street it was more of a food street,
but I stopped when I saw a man standing near a stall that was present at the corner, this time I didn't stop because of that weird voice it was more like my mind was telling me to stop, so I did. I wasn't moving but just staring at him, he wasn't doing anything it seemed like if he was lost in his thoughts, I don't know but for some reason, it was weird everything was weird, nothing seemed right.
I did see his face, I felt scared my heart, my mind, my mind was telling me to go back home NOW . he seemed in his early 20 or something, he didn't look homeless or poor, rather rich, he was wearing a black good quality rich red-colored hoodie with black rich colored jeans, yeah hell yeah he seemed good looking, I couldn't see his face much clearly as we were standing in a distance plus the crowd wasn't helping in any way either.
He had a good looking face, handsome let's say. Hazelish blue eyes, damn they were beautiful but not more than mine that's for sure. A clean face with the perfect jawline. he had an amazing watch on his left wtist it golden brownishly, but it seemed expansive. white cool looking sneakers, it seemed new like all of his clothing, unlike my clothes
I look down at my clothes that were like oried than 2 years old, this blue old hoodie that my mama gifted me on my 11th birthday, these black rip jeans that IDK when was the last time I had actually washed them in a good washer, and then these red sneakers that were type of new but not that high quality, we bought them from a dollar store for like 3 dollars, but still I loved them. then these cool looking watch on my left wrist that anna my best friend had gifted it to me on my 12th birthday. but I still loved everything that I had and couldn't ask for more than this
all my life has been a struggle, a struggle to stay happy and alive and I can't waste it on these stupid things like clothes and other jewels. my happiness didn't lay in these things my happiness was in my mother's happiness as long as she was happy I can live without these things, without any desire for it.
there it was again that voice that resulted in me to end up here in the first place, I quickly snapped my head towards my left side as it came from that side, I can clearly say this one thing this isn't me, this voice, it ain't me that's for sure the gender identity it was so confusing, looking at my left side nothing was there but then again
