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Love or Host

I'd never thought I'd ever want to do a stupid online dating show like this. Too embarrassing, I don't like the fact that you need to be even a little bit emotionally vulnerable to actually win over and convince the guest star that you are there for them. Why would you want to let the hundreds of thousands of viewers know that you actually have feelings?

At least that's how I feel. On my streams and videos, it may seem like I don't have a filter at all, I just say what comes to mind regardless of how it will make me look. And I know for most streamers, they just don't care. They're just there to act like clowns for their audiences, and so am I, but I try to be a bit more careful with what I say. In the context of shipping and other things similar, I know people will do what they want, but I try to control it to the best of my ability by always being careful with my words. 

I know it's stupid for someone of my career. Streamers and youtubers aren't supposed to have filters, they're supposed to say whatever comes to their stupid little heads as long as it's funny. If it makes a good bit, it's not supposed to matter. However, I try to refrain from popular bits such as flirting with other players I team up with or the whole creating sexual tension thing. And obviously people get sad or angry when things don't go their way on a server or challenge, even if it's just for the bit, but I always play all of it off. When people get hits on me or deliberately try to piss me off, I just try to be neutral about it. It isn't that hard because most of the time it's actually kind of funny, but my point is that I never really show passion for anything I do on my streams because that just means others are more inclined to ruin it just for laughs. I don't let my viewers know anything other than the humorous, not-really-a-gamer-girl gamer girl that is always chill and relaxed.

But then I got invited to be a contestant on Love or Host, hosted by AustinShow. The contestants have to win over the guest star, but the catch is that before anything starts they have to chose love or host. Whether they're there to win the heart of the guest star or if they were just there to win and run away with all the viewers after and leave the guest star to sit there looking stupid.

 I've watched a few of the VODs, and I think they're pretty funny. Maybe a bit boring if no one interesting is on, but the drama between contestants is so stupid and unnecessary it's actually interesting to watch. It's also kind of funny if the final contestant chose host. The betrayal is always fun to see at first but then I just end up feeling bad for the guest star. I also get horrible second hand embarrassment when it gets to the end and the contestants start becoming honest with their feelings. Disgusting. Sorry, it's just something that's always been weird for me. I Do Not like being emotionally vulnerable. 

The guest star I'm going to be a contestant for is Wilbur Soot. I know of him, seen him around on servers and SMPs, but I've never really interacted with him that much. I am friends with people who are friends with him though, and knowing that he was going to be the one I might be trying to win over, I've watched a bit of his content. He seems like a pretty nice guy, funny, and being completely transparent, definitely easy on the eyes. I wouldn't say I have a type, not necessarily in looks, but in personality he's the kind of guy I would really like. But the fact still stands: I don't know the guy. And I still have to figure out whether I want to choose love or host. 

This shouldn't be such a hard decision for me. It probably isn't for anyone else. Or maybe it is, you never know what's going on in other people's worlds. But I'm just worried about my image after this. I've seen many a streamer get ridiculed for months after being featured on Love or Host for the things they say or if they get betrayed or memed on by other contestants. I'm not sure if that would happen to me, I don't normally get bothered by the men I stream with and the people that get made fun of are ones that already get clowned on regularly. And I'm also pretty sure all of the other contestants will be girls too and won't be as competitive as I've seen the men be on past episodes. But that's only part of the problem.