Laito crosses his fingers with Ameto's. "I want to hold you... but I'm scared." These words... I've never heard anything like that out of his mouth. "You're afraid?" Ame asks him in surprise. "Afraid of being devoured. Afraid of being overwhelmed. Afraid... of drowning in that emotion. I don't want to kill you by accident." Still, he slowly opens the cuff on his left hand. It seems hesitant. Ame notices that his fingers are trembling. "It makes me think of doing all kinds of bad things to you." His smile is getting bigger. "Like pinning you down and feeling you struggle beneath me. Feeling your nails dig into my skin while I squish your flesh until I rip your throat apart with my teeth..." What a strange feeling. "It's such a beautiful and delicate feeling." It runs through his entire body and electrifies him. "Laito." Ame sits up. He puts his arms around the other's neck and strokes the back of his head. "I love you." At first, Laito says nothing. He does nothing. Then... he relaxes. "So you can do that to me." Ame carefully takes his face between his palms. "I love you." Laito's eyes close as the other's mouth approaches his throat. Soon Ameto's teeth are burrowing into his skin and the first drop of Laito's blood to touch the tip of his tongue spreads throughout his mouth in an overwhelming wave of taste, like the first drop of strong wine a child tastes. When he breaks away from him, out of breath and satisfied, he smiles and their lips meet. "I... I love you." He says it again, feeling silly by now, but he cannot say it enough. "Thank you." Deep in thought, they remain silent for a while. "What about you?" Ameto asks quietly. Laito doesn't lift his head off his shoulder. Instead, he frees Ameto's shackled feet. "I just want to hold you." Ame lets his words go through his head. "All right." Laito feels so small in his embrace. He seems so vulnerable right now. It is dangerous. I am dangerous. I have to hold back so much to prevent myself from telling him that he's cute. This situation is not good. Goosebumps cover his body when he thinks about it. He swallows. "L-Laito? Just holding each other like this... I don't think this is a good thing." He sighs and Ame freezes. But then he lifts his head and looks him in the eye. "You're right. This isn't good enough."
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Ruthless
FanfictionAmeto is the son of Cordelia and Richter, which means that his existence is constantly reminding Laito of his trauma. After he's been gone for several decades, he returns home to face his brother's hatred. WARNING! There's a lot of suffering in this...
