I want you to stay

The Day He Left

"Yo, Cam! Are you in LA yet? We are playing with Inters tonight, so if you want to watch, I can pick you up. This game means a lot, so no pressure, but be there haha. -Mark"

When Cam saw that the message wasn't from you, he was dissapointed. It was from his cousin Mark who lived in LA, and used to spend his spring breaks at Cam's place. He also played for his school football team, so Cam knew how important the game was to him. Cam called him to explain where he lived and other stuff.

Half an hour later, while Cameron and his father were on a road trip, and driving around LA, you were lying on your sofa and watching TV, but you weren't really paying attention to that fashion show. You were still sad, your pillows would be full of tears every night. Everyone around you noticed that you were so quiet, and they knew the reason, but still everyone thought you were making such a big deal out of nothing, that you are playing a victim. Your mom understood how you felt, but she didn't want her little girl to be sad all the time, so she invited Emily, your best friend.

She was the only one that could cheer you up. 

"Heeeeey, girl!!"

You turned around, and saw your BFF with two bags of  candies and snacks.

"Heey, Emily!", you smiled.

"Is that a smile I see on your dummy, creepy, little face?" Emily laughed and hugged you.

"It's so nice to see you, Em, I missed you"

Emily: "Yeah, right! Then how come you haven't called me or texted me, I've sent you a zillion messeges on My Space and you haven't responded!"

You: "Ohh, you know I love you, but I totally forgot about My Space. It's just.. It feels like..I still can't.."

You started crying again.

Emily: "Oh, sweety..Please, don't cry.

You: "But I can't believe I lost him. He just disappeared. What happened? "

Emily: " How can you say you lost him? You guys still love each other, those are just a stupid miles, they can't stand between two of you. How could you let yourself cry every night? It's not like you two broke up...right?

You just looked at her.

Emily: "Oh my God, what happened? You didn't break up with him, did you? Tell me, did you!?

You: "Since I haven't talked to you before, here it is... Gosh, I'll never forget that day. He called me and said to look through the window. I did so, and there he was, dancing and jumping, while Shawn was playing guitar. Cam was singing to me. He looked like an idiot with that snapback, I was laughing so hard. But that was actually the cutest thing anyone has done for me. I got out of the house and hugged him. Kissed him. Shawn was teasing us, and than he vanished away, cuz he was late for his rehearsal. Cam and I went for a long walk  and got to the most beautiful place...where we used to spend most of our time. When we were about to go home, he said that he's moving to California in 2 days because his dad found a better job. You have no idea how I felt. I couldn't believe, I started crying. He hugged me, and we stayed like that for half an hour. I asked him to stay, I was whispering 'stay, please stay with me'. He hugged me even thighter and said he would do anything to stay if he could, he already asked his father to stay here, but his dad said no..You should see Cam's face when he was telling me that he has to move, he looked so angry, and i don't know. When I started asking him to stay and crying, he showed a side of him I've never seen before. I saw a tear in his eyes, but he didn't want me too see that, so he just said 'shhh' and put my head on his chest. He told me I changed his life and that I'm his whole world.."

Your tears rolled down your cheeks, and Emily hugged you.

Emily: "It's okay, girl, we're not mentioning Cam anymore, cause I'm taking you to dinner, or we could go to that new club. What do you say?"

You: "I don't know, I can't, I'm too tired.."

Emily: "Oh, c'mon, stop crying like a baby, I know this is hard for you, but get yourself in order! You have to stay strong! And Gosh, you have cellphone, he has one too, you can talk to him whenever you want! And you are going out with me tonight, I don't want to see no more tears, okay?"

You: "But Emily, I can't just call him! After all I said to him.."

Emily: "What did you do now?"

You: "Remember Dylan? Of course you remember him, he was my first real boyfriend. And remember how it ended? He moved to other town, and we couldn't see each other every day, or every other day. But we decided to have a long distance relationship, and in the end it didn't work, he got a new girlfriend. And now the guy I truly love moved far, far away. This is LA we're talking about, don't you think he'll fall in love? I don't want to do that to him, and I'd rather not have a broken heart the same way again! So I said to him I don't want a long distance relationship, I don't believe in that, it's the best for both of us. He asked me: Are we actually breking up?

I saw a tear in his eyes, which made me cry again, gosh why do I cry all the time? Tomorrow day he picked me up, and we got to the place where we met, and just spent our last hours together just looking at the stars. And yeah, kissing too. I miss him, Emily!