Fallin' For The New Girl~ Chandler Riggs and Sam

Chapter Six:

I just stood there crying onto Sam's black shirt.

"It's okay," Sam cooed. I stopped crying and pulled away from the hug.

"'It's okay,'" I mocked Sam, "No, it is not okay. It never will be. How would you feel if your dad died? How would you feel if you only got to see your dad, which your pretty close to or was close too, a couple times a year? How would you feel if you lost someone that meant the world to you? Its not going to be okay Sam... It won't. So, don't say it will be okay. Got it?" I snapped.

"... Sorry. I know it's not going to be okay right now but you will be some day. Your dad died fighting for our county, us... You and your family. I'm hear for you, Chandler is here for you. We all are here for you," Sam explained.

"I know, I'm sorry. I'm so selfish. Please forgive me," I begged.

"Of course Emma," Sam smiled.

I made pizza for everyone. My mom locked herself in her room. I slid a few pieces of pizza under her door but I don't know if she will eat them. Sam, Gray, Chandler, and I didn't have any because we ate already.

"Emma, can you get me a napkin," Alex asked licking the sauce from astound his lips. I grabbed a couple napkins to give to Victor and Alex. They thanked me.

I walked into the living room and sat on the couch. Next to my couch was a coffee table type thing an it had a coffee photos on it. One was if Alex, Mom, Victor, me, and my dad. I grabbed the picture and looked at my dad, not blinking. He was and still is my favorite person. I love him. I felt the couch slightly dip in next to me. I didn't bother taking my eyes off the picture. That person hugged me from the side and I couldn't help it but let tears come a tear fell from my eye and onto the picture.

"Shh," Chandler whispered. I guess that person was Chandler.

"I miss him," I cried.

"Hey, Emma, just pretend that he is still fighting over seas, that he is on a long vacation," Chandler suggested.

"I'll try," I said, wiping my tears away and setting the picture back on the coffee table. "Maybe, it was just his time to go."

"He's still with you... His spirit could be in this room right now, standing by you," Chandler half smiled. I got off the couch.

"Yea, maybe."

I walked back into the kitchen. Alex and Victor were still eating the pizza I made them. Alex had pizza sauce around his face.

"I thought I gave you a napkin for a reason," I fake laughed. Alex is still young so I don't want to seem all depressed, I don't want him to find out that dad is dead. Or should he? I don't know anymore. This is all so confusing. I hate it, I hate me, I hate my life, I hate God for taking away my dad. I hate everything and everyone.

"Yea," Alex giggled, wiping his mouth with the napkin. He set the napkin back on the table and started to eat again.

I just remembered that I should probably tell my best friend Annaliese what happened to my dad. We haven't talked in a while.

I went back into the living room and messaged my friend Anna.

(e-Emma a-Anna)

E- hi sorry I haven't talked I a while, I've been busy and... My dad died.

I didn't know how to tell her that my father died. I got a text back a second after I sent the message.

A- omg Em I'm so sorry. I'm here for you. How's your mom and brothers holding up? How r u holding up?
E- Alex doesn't know, Victor is sad, my mom locked herself in her room. Me, I'm depressed but I'm trying to stay strong for my brothers and mom. It's killing me but I need to be strong for them. I miss u so much :(
A- I'm so sorry. Is there anything my family or I can do? I miss u too
E- I don't think so but thank u
A- no problem Em. Ur my best friend I'll do anything for you.
E- Ik thank you. I should go :/
A- message me later or tomorrow. :(

Why couldn't it have been me that died?