I Swear [ Sope And Taekook ]

Prologue

He always knew that he would one day be happy , you didn't go through all this shit in life and end up being alone right ? That's what Yoongi had told himself , that's what he tried to remind himself that he was worth it . He was right ? Was he really ? He was in love , he was a lot of things but , he knew how to be honest with himself most of all . He just couldn't figure out if his love was breaking , destroying or killing him . He consoled himself by saying it was all the same . Yet , it changed and he knew that he wasn't broken , destroyed or dead . He was happy , but his mind kept asking for how long , how long willl it last till the other realized that he was nothing worth keeping , nothing worth loving .

" I love you ." The words Yoongi decided even if they fake , were his favourite phrase . He would bask in it now , here in the moment and when the time came , since he was so convinced it would , when it came then , only then would he deal with it .

" I love you Hoseok ." He whispered as he cuddled his boyfriend . ' Boyfriend ' He smiled to himself , he finally got to call Jung Hoseok his own , so he dwelled on that and pushed his negatives away .

" I love you too Kitten ." The dancer replied , pulling him closer , kissing his head lightly as they drifted off .

He tried his best , he really did he didn't want his Hyung to hate him . He tried to talk to someone but , the words always stuck and day by day he fell deeper until the only thought was to run , run far far away . Yet , the very reason he wanted to run because of , is what made him stay . Love was not meant for all he reminded himself , he knew he was lucky he still had their friendship . Jungkook watched with broken sobs late at night as the man he loved drifted further away from him , he didn't even realise that he was the one pushing the boat away as it drifted towards the open sea. He didn't see the elders' pained expression either , and he never saw the dissapointment his Hyungs showed when he neglected himself , and changed his routine . He was glad however , when he was stopped from becoming a true wreck and his routine returned to normal and he paired his broken friendships , all except the most important one , to both oblivious boys . He was too busy avoiding the person , that he failed to see the pain he had caused , the tears at night that stained his pillow . Taehyung was now the wreck , but he didn't have help , because no one ever knew , he hated that people never saw , but he hated being named a weakling , a child , more . So he smiled that boxy smile and he hid his pain , he figured if someone truly cared then no matter how good an actor he was , they would see . He was fine with anyone being that person , but he hoped , he knew it was wrong but , held the hope that it would be the boy that was pushing him away , the boy that was breaking him .