Love is strength

Chapter 2

Clarke

Yesterday Lexa walked in on me and Raven, that was really embarrassing but it wasn't what it looked like, well it kind of was, I was trying to get Lexa off my mind and Raven was trying to get Luna off hers.

Raven and Luna had a relationship going on for awhile but Luna left without telling Raven goodbye so she's been trying to forget about Luna as much as possible. Me on the other hand, I think I love Lexa but I don't think the Heda is allowed to be with anyone because to Grounders 'Love is weakness' so I try to get the thought of me and Lexa out of my head but half of the time it doesn't work.

Me and Raven only did this a few times but honestly maybe we should just be friends because this could ruin a lot in the future and I prefer her as my friend not lover.

I was on my way to Ravens room to call the hook ups off, in a way it didn't feel right to continue.

Raven understood, "I was gonna call it off as well Clarke" she murmured. I made my way back to my own room.

I layer in bed for hours thinking about Lexa and what it would be like to be with her. Maybe under her stone cold shell she has a soft spot, sometimes she shows it around me, I normally push her away though and I don't know why I do that, I really like Lexa.

Octavia and Lincoln have been staying at Polis too, they belong here anyways, it's who they are. I went to their room. "Sorry I should have announced my presence!" As usual clothes were off and they were in bed. I shut the door and stood in the hall waiting for O to come out. "Next time put a sock on the door or something" Octavia smirked "Sure thing Mom" I rolled my eyes. "Would you like to get some things from the market with me?" I asked, "Yes actually, we've been needing a few things to stay warm."

Winter was coming soon and without any electricity we had to rely on furs and Lexa's candles. I don't know what it is about her but she has thousands of them around the tower, it's kind of cute though.

There were many different shops set up, clothes, food, war paint, furs, soap, combs, and so much more. I split from O and got some pairs of black pants and long sleeve shirts, soap, a comb, and some furs. I didn't have much to trade so I only got the things I would need most.

I met back up with Octavia once I was done and she was finishing up, stuff for her and Lincoln. We went to the lift and guards pulled us up, it was awkwardly silent, "How're you?" I broke the silence. "Doing better, I finally feel at peace here with Lincoln. What about you Clarkey?" Ew Clarkey? "Better than before I guess I could say that, although I miss my mother." I radioed her every other day so she could keep me updated on the Ark but I still missed my mother.

Once I got to my room I decided to bathe myself, meanings I haven't taken one in months. I ran the water and stripped my clothes off and jumped in. Surprisingly it was warm I applied shampoo to my hair and washed my body, after I rinsed the shampoo out of my hair. I stayed in the bathe for awhile with my eyes closed thinking.

I heard a knock at my door. I panicked as I got out to find a towel, "One moment!" I yelled, apparently not loud enough. I heard the door open and standing there was Lexa, luckily the towel covered the front of me. "I am so sorry" Lexa said "No it's fine Lexa" I said with a gentle voice, wrapping the rest of my body with the towel.