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somewhere only we know

I could feel the rough dirt beneath my feet, the sun hot on my face. It was grounding in a way, something I'd never felt in the past year. I could  see him clearly, pointing out every semi interesting rock, branch, leaf. I stopped by the tree. I could still barely see the engraving on the trunk. 'S + B, Till the end of the line.' I thought back to the first time he took me here, Mom had just passed a few days before. He insisted on going out, he took me here. I remember the warmth of his hands on mine, my head resting on his shoulder, as we carved our initials into the bark. He was my home, we found peace in each other, love we never thought existed, it was all in us. When I felt the tears threatening to spill out, I rest my head against the cool bark of the tree, and broke. He always hassled me for bottling up my emotions, it was always, "Steve you can let it out. You're not weak, you never were, and you never will be. You're the strongest guy I know." I could almost feel his strong arms wrapping around my waist, his comforting words vibrating against my chest. I felt weaker than I ever did when I heard about the diagnosis. I felt helpless, angry, and those feelings only worsened when he accepted it. He accepted the fact that he'd only have a year at most left, that we would never get that dog together, like we always wanted, that we could never get married like we said we would. He always told me to keep fighting, to not give up, to not let any asshole have the last word. Well, cancer is a fucking asshole. An ugly sob escaped my throat. "I love you, Buck." I held my head in my hands. "I love you."
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Written by: 7lysian