You Are Mine - Taekook Love Story.

06 - What If I Don't Want To Go Back?

Dinner that night was awfully quiet. It was raining heavily which definitely put a damp in the atmosphere but it was the strange tension between Taehyung and Kookie that was making things awkward more.

Kookie didn't speak at all except to say that his head hurts and even though Taehyung thought it's a lie, he was not brave enough to call it out. While you might call them friends, Taehyung and Kookie were literally strangers, brought together by a twist of fate.

They don't really owe each other any explanation.

Kookie was actually having a headache right now. It was not because of the flashback but because of thinking too much. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't remember who the man is. But it was very clear that he was romantically involved with him.

And it was scaring him because at this very moment, he feels as if he's harbouring the same romantic feelings towards the handsome man who's having his dinner in front of him.

Yes, he likes Taehyung. He doesn't remember from what point exactly, maybe it was love at first sight or maybe it was due to the kind and caring way the other always treated him. Whatever the reason, he had fallen for this man, despite only knowing him for a week.

And Kookie could also feel that Taehyung was having the same thoughts as him. He was slowly getting ready to show more of his emotions and Taehyung was staring to take small steps too.

But now, Kookie feels really scared. Is it right for him to step towards this man as he now know that there's someone else in his past. Wouldn't thatb be cheating?

Taehyung looked at Kookie, who was picking at his food, already lost somewhere in his thoughts. He wanted to ask about what's wrong so much but it doesn't feel right to invade Kookie's privacy like that.

"You're really quiet today. Is everything ok?" Taehyung asked tentatively.

"Yeah, it's fine. Sorry for not being a better company. And food's delicious Taehyung." Kookie said with an attempt to sound normal.

"Kookie.." Taehyung said in a reproachful way. "Just talk to me ok."

"Really, I'm fine, Taehyung. It's just a headache. Maybe because I got soaked in the rain." Kookie tried again with a smile.

"Ok."

They had their dinner in silence for few minutes.

"Oh! I've been meaning to ask you something. Like I said earlier, school's starting from Monday. I'll be gone for most of the day and I don't really want you to stay here alone. So why don't you come with me?" Taehyung said in a serious voice as Kookie listened.

"To school? What will I do there?"

"You can stay with Namjioon hyung  or me when I don't have classes. Or you can stay in the library. We have a good collection of books."

"Well, ok, I suppose. It sure beats staying here alone."

"That's what I thought too. And maybe   reading different types of books might jog your memory. Like if you came across a subject related to whatever that you were doing with your life."

Kookie was silent for few minutes.

"Tae.."

"Yeah..?"

"Do you like me to get my memory back?" Kookie asked in a tentative voice and the meaning behind the question was very clear to Taehyung.

"I don't want you to be lost like this Kookie. I can see you're hating not knowing who you are even."

"That's not what I asked. I asked whether you would like it or not?" Although the question sounds forced, Kookie's expression was really gentle. And nervous.

"What I like, is for you to be happy with your life." Taehyung answered with a sigh, because, that's really what he wanted.

"But what if I didn't like what I remembered? What if I didn't want to go back? For all we know, I could be a c-criminal o-or murderer.." Kookie's voice was shaking and sounded really vulnerable.

"Hey, look at me!" Taehyung waited till Kookie met his eyes. "Whatever your past holds, I sincerely doubt you are a murderer. And if you reall don't want to go back, you can always stay here. We can figure something out." Taehyung said with a soft smile and Kookie gave a smile in return.

"W-with you?" Kookie asked with a slight blush..

"Y-yeah. O-only If that's what you want. I'm sure we can find a job for you." Taehyung looked equally flustered.

"Yeah. I think I'd like that." Kookie's voice was barely a whisper but it was enough for Taehyung to hear.

Taehyung was happy to hear that Kookie was considering the option to stay. He was so sure that Kookie had another flashback this afternoon and that it was the reason for their distance.

They bid goodnight and went to bed after dinner. It was raining heavily with lightning and thundering. Taehyung tossed and turned on his bed for sometime but couldn't sleep with all the noises. He got up from the bed in annoyance and went to the kitchen to drink some water.

In his way back, he passed Kookie's room and that's when he heard the soft whispers from the other side of the door. He gently knocked on the door in concern but there was no reply.

Taehyung then opened the door a little and spoke in to the room.

"Kookie? Are you ok?" Taehyung waited for few seconds for a response but he didn't get one.

He opened the door and walked in tentatively. Lightning provided the necessary light to see the bed and the man who was withering on it. Kookie had his eyes closed and was clearly yet asleep.

Taehyung walked closer to the bed and realised that the other is having a nightmare of the sort. He gently shook him but Kookie didn't wake up.

"Hey, Kookie wake up. You're having a nightmare. Wake up!!"

But Kookie just continued to move uneasily on the bed and pulled Taehyung to him by his hand.

"S-stay with me." Kookie whispered and Taehyung felt his heart tag at that. "Stay with me, please.."

"Sure, I'll stay." Taehyung didn't know whether Kookie was awake or not but he didn't want to deny the other either way.

Taehyung walked to the other side of the bed and got on behind Kookie. After thinking for he seconds,  he tentatively wrapped a hand around the other and immediately felt Kookie responding by snuggling his back in to Taehyung's chest.

They stayed like that for few seconds and Taehyung felt Kookie relaxing and his whimpering slowed down to nothingness too. Taehyung closed his eyes and  was just about to sleep when he heard Kookie whispering again.

"I'm sorry, Chim..."

Taehyung opened his eyes in shock and couldn't sleep after that at all.