Love Or Sin ✅

Part: 43 Broken Dreams

Shivansh was completely shattered. He was standing on the cliff and screaming but the pain was not lessening. Today, he lost all his dream also with Shehnaaz. He had seen many dreams with her, having babies, she is confessing love to him, they both are playing with their kids and the dream of growing old with her. When he was seeing those dreams, he didn't know that one day his all dreams would be broken like this. If he had known, he would have never seen those dreams.

He was feeling like to jump off the cliff and end his all pain with his life. He was feeling like the whole world is collapsing down in front of his eyes. He had never thought that she would fall in love with Sidharth. He couldn't even fight to get her because she was in love with his best friend. There was no hope left with him of getting his love. He was feeling so empty like nothing had left with him. The one year was so beautiful with her. She was the happiness of his life. He was trying to keep her happy and he had always thought about her happiness before his happiness. He was so in love with her that he couldn't see that she wasn't in love with him.

But now he was realising that he was such a fool. He was realising that whenever he used to come close to her, she used to push him away and give some excuse. He was blindly in love with her and he was happy. Her behaviour was clearly telling him that she didn't love him but still, he ignored everything and keep loving her unconditionally. But he got pain and only pain in return.

He went to the bar and got drunk. One drink after another drink, but the pain wasn't lessening. All the moments which he had spent with her, they were beautiful and precious which he wanted to forget but it isn't easy to forget the best time of our life. Memories can never be forgotten whether they are good or bad.

Shehnaaz woke up after a few hours and found Sidharth, sitting beside her bed, on the stool, holding her hand. Sidharth gave her a small smile, caressing her hair with his free hand.

"How are you feeling?" He asked concernedly, putting hands on her face. He was gently caressing her soft cheek with his thumb.

"I'm fine." She replied to him, blinking her eyes.

"Where is Shivansh?" His facial expression changed as Shehnaaz asked about Shivansh.

"Now, he knows everything." Sidharth sighed.

"He was badly hurt but still he neither blamed me nor you. He just asked me to take care of you. He loves you a lot, Shehnaaz. I don't know how he will move on..." Sidharth was staring straight, distressed. Shehnaaz closed her eyes dejectedly.

"I was wishing him to hate me," Shehnaaz uttered suddenly, gazing straight. Then turned her face to look at Sidharth. She found him staring at her confusingly.

"If he had hated me, maybe it would have become a bit easy to move on for him."She again looked straight blankly.
"Don't you think ?" she asked after looking at him.

"The person who loves you, that person can never hate you. He can only pretend but his heart can never hate you. You know, one-sided love, it gives extreme pain to you but still, you can't stop loving that person who loves another person. Seeing that person whom you love, with somebody else, burns your heart. I have gone through this pain because I didn't know that you love me. I was thinking that my love is one-sided and I had accepted this truth, putting the stone on my heart that you can never be mine. But still, I could never stop my heart from loving you, for not even a single second. You know, I had never wished you to love me back because I didn't want this to happen. I didn't want that Shivansh goes through the same pain which I have gone through. But all these things were written in our destiny. I'm relieved that now he knows the truth. The day, Shivansh will move on his life happily, that day, I will be happy from my heart." Sidharth was telling her everything which was going in his mind. Shehnaaz was listening to him silently.