SOLO// JENNIE KIM

N I N E T E E N

May 29th, 2020
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TW// Mention Of Panic Attacks

Ever since Jennie's panic attacks came back, it made it harder for her to focus on work. Sometimes, she was able to control her panic attacks by focusing on something that made her feel peaceful. Other times, she would have to rush out to the bathroom and make sure no one could hear her.

Lisa would come over from time to time to check up on her and make sure she was okay, but it wasn't enough to reduce the attacks she had. Woo-Jong had been making Jennie work on a mini album, all that did was bring her more stress. She wanted to work on a single, that would mean less promotions and less work.

However, whenever she brought up the suggestion, Woo-Jong just called her lazy. It made her blood boil. To make things worse, Taehyung still wasn't home yet and she didn't have much time to talk to him because he was extra busy with shoots lately.

Things like this made it harder for Jennie to be alone without breaking down. Everyday she would come home from work and immediately start sobbing, failing to calm herself down as sobbing turned into full on hyperventilating.

She was currently trying to come up with ideas for some tracks but because of her panic attacks, she never really got sleep at night and so she was unbelievably exhausted. She tried her best to stay awake but her efforts didn't work as sleep took over.

"Jennie, Jennie wake up!", the sleeping girl woke up to someone gently shaking her. She looked up to meet the concerned eyes of Lisa. "Are you alright? I've been trying to wake you up for 10 minutes." Jennie just shrugged and placed her head into her hands. "Come on, I'm not letting you drive home in this state, I'm taking you home."

Jennie didn't protest, and instead packed up her things and followed Lisa out into the parking lot where they got into her small car. The night was cold, you could tell winter was arriving. The wind blew through Jennie's hair as soft music played from the radio.

Jennie got so caught up in the peaceful atmosphere that she didn't even recognize they had made it to her house. The two said their goodbyes as Jennie rushed inside and immediately laid down. She was starting to hate her job. Music, and being an idol started to feel like a chore rather than something she loved to do.

She knew her mental health wasn't stable enough to handle being an idol and as the days went on she slowly started to melt away. Barely paying attention to her surroundings anymore. All of these thoughts overtook her head as she fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.
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A/N: omgggg I'm so so sorry I haven't updated this book for months. I'm gonna try to update more but I've been having huge writers block so these are really just fillers so I'm sorry if they're bad, I'm really trying my best right now to work with what I got.