Back to life - Bellward [TTS]

Preface

Before you start reading this, I just wanted to let you know that English is NOT my main language, so I already apologise for mistakes.

I was accepting my death with pleasure. I had heard his voice for the last time, so I could die with his voice clear in my head. I was drowning and I didn't care. The water was too strong for me, a simple human who didn't have care of herself for the last seven months, and I wasn't fighting for my life.
Because I didn't want to live anymore and I didn't have the strength to fight anymore. Without him, I was useless, empty, with a really broken heart. So I closed my eyes, waiting for my hour to come.

Fight. Bella. Fight. Survive. Swim.

Here it was again. His voice. How could I hear him? I was underwater, after all. It couldn't be possible, even for my hallucinations.
I didn't open my eyes, hearing his voice for the really last time. My hour was coming, finally, the darkness was taking me away, but suddenly I was taken away by this dark and I was brought back to the light. Even if my eyes were closed, I knew something was happening. Something big. Something my heart wanted, and was waiting for, because in that moment my heart felt...good. Good for the first time after a really long time. I felt at home.

Maybe I was dead. Maybe the death was not so painful as people might think. Death was better than these last months of nothing. Finally I had found the peace of my heart.
I would have wanted Edward to cure my heart, to hold it, to love it, and maybe to stop him, by changing me giving us our forever.

But he didn't want me, he didn't love me, I wasn't enough for him.
Once I said that I would have preferred to die, than to stay away from him.
And so happening, I kept what I said: I was dying, this time for real and I wasn't afraid, because there's no life without the love of my life. There's no life without Edward and I've always known that.
I couldn't cope another second without him.

But how wrong was I, believing that those were the last minutes of my life?

Hi! I started writing this on fanfiction.net, but I stopped after publishing the first chapter, so I decided to continue writing and posting here. This is my first bellward fanfiction, so I hope that this preface gave you a little bit of curiosity. Give me reviews, if you want to, I would appreciate that! Kisses,
-N