"Fuck, fuck fuck fuck no! W-why won't it stop?"
Kirari was crying silently on the bathroom floor, blood and cuts covering her arms and a blade in her hand. She ran her arm under some water in hopes it'll help, but to no avail.
She felt herself getting light headed as seconds passed of her frantically trying to get the situation under control. Her vision faded to black as the last thing she heard was the door open and the most beautiful voice she's ever heard cries out, "P-President!?"
Time skip ig
Kirari POV:
All I could remember is passing out on the bathroom floor and hearing a worried Sayaka. Now all I can hear is faint beeps, but they seem to be getting more audible with each passing minute. I can feel something warm and comforting holding my hand.
My eyes twitched. I open them to see a hospital room and Sayaka sitting next to me with an extremely worried look on her face. I can see Ririka on the other side with her mask on. I can already tell she's crying her eyes out.
"G-guys? Wh-ere are w-we?" Sayaka jumped, slightly surprised. Then she started sobbing uncontrollably as she hugged me as tight as possible.
"Kirari.! Y-you were passed out o-on the b-bathroom floor, c-covered in b-blo-od and c-cuts."
Oh fuck. I remember now. I was.. just trying to get stress out. I must have over did it. "Sayaka, honey I'm really sorry."
"H-how long have y-you been doing th-this?"
I thought for a moment. "A couple years now."
Sayaka's sobs only grew louder. "President, I-if only y-you have j-just told m-me. I c-could have h-helped!"
I didn't say anything. My eyes attention was drawn to the bandages on my arms. "Hey! Is everything okay?"
Mary just walked into the room, going over to give Ririka a hug. The blonde wrapped her arms tightly around the taller girl. Ririka stayed silent, she probably couldn't even talk at this point.
"I'm sorry you guys have to spend your time on me."
"Shut up babe. Y-you always w-worth our t-time." Sayaka's sobs had calmed down. She was now breathing heavily as she rested her head on my chest and held my hands.
"I'm sorry I made you worry about something as stupid as this."
Ririka took off her mask to reveal her tear stained face. Mary hugged her tighter.
"Rari, shut up! You talking bad about yourself is making us more upset."
I couldn't bother listen to her. I know that all I am is just a useless waste of life. Then, Sayaka said something that made me think.
"If w-we didn't c-care a-about you, then w-why are we h-here and why I-is Ririka a-and me a m-mess?"
I was silent. She was right. They weren't here because they felt bad, they were here because they care. And Sayaka is dating me not out of pity, but because she loves me and I love her.
I feel tears welling up in my eyes. I hug my dear Sayaka back and said, "I'm sorry I did this to you."
She chuckled. "It's not your f-fault hun. I get you have self doubt. But I'm gonna do everything I can to help." I smiled and kissed her forehead. "Thanks Saya."
Another mf time skip
Sayaka POV:
It's been about 20 minutes since we left the hospital.
Now Kirari's laying down in our room.
What did I do wrong? Why did she do it?
Am I not good enough?
"Baby? Are you okay?" Kirari walked in on Sayaka crying to herself at the kitchen table.
"*sniff* Yeah, I'm fine hun." Sayaka forced a smile, but Kirari knew she was upset.
"Saya, talk to me. What's wrong?" Kirari stood her up and hugged her closely. Sayaka broke down in her lover's arms.
"I-it's just that, I c-couldn't stop y-you from doing w-what you d-did." Kirari stood there with her chin resting on her shorter girlfriend's head. "Saya, what I did was not your fault. I just wasn't strong enough."
Kirari was crying as well at this point.
"Rari, you're the strongest person I've ever met, what do you mean by that?"
Kirari stayed silent. "Sometimes, I don't feel like I'm worth it. And I just feel like I'm not good enough for you."
Sayaka was suprised. Does she really think that? She thought. Does she not know she's everything to me?
"And I know it's stupid but-" Kirari was quickly cut off by her girlfriend's lips connecting with hers.
"Babe, always know that without you, I'm nothing. I mean, what's a president without a secretary right?" Sayaka giggled at that part. Kirari chuckled.
"I guess your right." Kirari hugged Sayaka tightly.
"I love you Sayaka Igarashi."
"I love you more."
"Uhhhhhh. Are we interrupting something?"
Mary and Ririka had walked into the room together.
"Oh no, me and Sayaka were just talking." Mary rested her head on Ririka's shoulder. "Well good. We didn't want to walk in on you pervs fucking."
Ririka softly hit Mary. "So what now?"
Sayaka had let Kirari play with her hair.
"I dunno. Maybe watch a movie?"
Ririka smiled. "Sounds good."
