Moments in life

Now they have 3 of a kind

Jack POV-

I can't breathe. I feel like a zombie. The only thing that is keeping me functioning at all is our daughter. I know I must look horrible, but Skylar doesn't care. As soon as my mother brings her into the room she comes right over and crawls up into my lap. She forces me to pay attention to her. She is my little angel. But I think even she understands how bad her daddy is feeling. She just sits with me and quietly talks. She misses mommy as much as I do. I am trying to be strong for her but I feel like my heart has stopped beating.

I can't stop looking at the her laying there on the bed. The slow beeps of the monitors sounding through the room. It's been three days. The doctors say they are not sure she will ever awake. I can't believe that. She will come back. She is just tired. I just have to wait.

I haven't even seen the twins yet since they were born. My parents tell me they are perfect, but I can't bring myself to go see them. I can't even let the hospital staff bring them here. I just can't. I can't see our new babies without her. We have to do that together.

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The birth seemed to go so well. I mean it was harder then Skylar because there were two babies making their way into the world, but it seemed OK. Gabrielle was beaten and sweaty, but when we heard the second baby cry she squeezed my hand and smiled tiredly up at me.

That's when everything went wrong. I could tell the moment her eyes glazed over and I felt her hand slacken. I think I screamed for the doctor the same moment the monitors started going off. They pushed me out of the way and started checking her. I don't remember what they said, something about losing blood, but they rushed her out of the room before I could process more then my Gabrielle was in trouble.

I am not sure how long I stood there. I know they took our babies away. I know I stood there until Cassie came in and got me. Our families were asking questions but all I could say was I don't know. Eventually a doctor came and told us that Gabrielle had a complication and had lost a lot of blood. They were able to stop it and save her but she had slipped into a coma. They didn't know if or when she would awake. I couldn't believe them. She had to wake. She couldn't leave me like this.

I think is was Cassie that lead me to her room. I still couldn't process anything but that my Gabrielle was in trouble.

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That was three days ago. I haven't left the room except to go to the bathroom. I can't. I have to be here when she awakes. I know I just have to wait. I can't think any other way. My parents tried to talk to me about things, but I couldn't listen. I just stopped them saying that she will wake up and be fine.

 Inside though I am scared. I don't think I could go on without her. I feel like half of me is missing now. I can't stand feeling this way. I have prayed for her every night, kneeling next to her bed. I have promised everything I can think of if she would just be able to wake up for me. I think I have slept for maybe four hours in the three days. I remember once I woke up from a short nap still kneeling on the floor with my head laying on her hand.

Today my mother brought me clean clothes to change into. She said these are starting to smell. I don't really care, but she did remind me that when Gabrielle wakes up, she wouldn't want me to smell. So I will agree to change in the bathroom. The hospital is nice about allowing me to use the one in her room even though it's suppose to be for patients only.  

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My mother just took Skylar home for a while to play and have dinner. They will be back in a few hours. I at least have changed my clothes and cleaned up a little. I don't smell anymore. I know I could use a shave and a shower, but I can't leave to do that.