i am not elena gilbert

chapter 1

"Goodnight darling," my mom said as she closed my bedroom door behind her.

"Love you!" I replied. I closed my laptop and turned off my bedside light. I had school the next day, I should've already been sleeping. I went on my phone for a bit to check twitter and instagram, but my eyes got tired so I put my phone on charge and turned over. I dozed off quickly.

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I opened my eyes and saw the sun coming in through the window. I closed my eyes for a brief moment before I realised if the sun is up I must've overslept by a lot. I threw my duvet off my body dramatically and brought myself to my feet. I looked around, confused. This was definitely not my bedroom. It took my just woken up brain a few seconds to realise why the room looked so familiar, it was Elena Gilbert's room from the vampire diaries. I got excited. I mean, it made sense,I was watching the show right before I went to sleep. I'd had lucid dreams before, but they'd never felt so vivid.

I glanced down at my outstretched hands. They looked darker than usual, longer and I actually had nice nails. Odd, I thought. But not crazy. Although, I did recall seeing somewhere that you can't see your hands in a dream. I walked over to the vanity and looked in the mirror. Holy shit, this is a cool dream, I thought to myself. I was literally Elena Gilbert. I ran my hands through my hair. It felt so, real? Now I was even more confused. I knew this wouldn't actually happen, but everything felt too real to just be a dream. I saw a figure behind me in the mirror, causing me to yelp and spin quickly to look at the door to the bedroom.

"Elena, are you okay?" he said, concerned. I had another holy shit moment. It was Stefan. Stefan Salvatore. And I was Elena Gilbert. I had so much running through my head I didn't know what to say.

"Stefan! Uh- yeah yeah I'm uh fine" I said. Nice one. Stefan obviously didn't believe it. He stepped closer to me.

"Elena, it will be okay I promise we won't let her hurt anyone else. We will get the truth out of her"

I thought about just being plain stupid, and fucking around. But a part of me was wondering if maybe this was real, maybe Elena's life had become more than just a tv show and I had taken over her body. But I also didn't know who the hell he was talking about.

"Who? What are you talking about Stefan?" I'll admit, it wasn't a very good answer but I didn't know what else to say.

Stefan was now standing right in front of me. He looked really concerned. He had impressive eyebrows. "I'm talking about Katherine, you know, the doppelgänger, the one who chopped off your uncle's fingers last night? We are going to the hospital to ask him about Katherine."

That sentence hit me like a truck. I could feel my blood beginning to pump faster and I started to feel very hot. Breathing very heavily, I sat down on my bed. I remembered this part of the show. It's season 2, episode 1. Katherine has just arrived in town.

I must've looked like hell. Stefan sat down next to me and was trying to calm me down - it wasn't really working. "Elena, talk to me! Please, tell me what's going on" he said in a panicked but hushed voice.

"Uhm- nothing, I'm fine" I said, trying to slow my breathing.

"What's the last thing you remember Elena."

I paused and gulped. I was already lying, why not continue. "No, no, I remember it all." It wasn't too much of a lie. I remembered the show very clearly, I had watched it so many times. I was sure everything important was put in the show, so I wasn't too worried. I remembered Katherine tricked Damon into kissing her by pretending to be Elena. And before that there was the whole founders day debacle with the vampire device that killed a bunch of vampires. My breathing had significantly slowed "I'm okay. Let's go to the hospital."

"What just happened Elena?" I knew Stefan wasn't going to let it go, he loved Elena so much. That's when I remembered they're dating.

I looked into his eyes. It felt nice knowing that he loved me, even if it wasn't really me. "I think I had a small panic attack, or something. I'll be okay. We should really go". I was quite proud of that. It sounded selfless, very Elena-like.

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Talking to John was weird. I tried to recite exactly what happened in the show, which was basically just Elena asking John what he knew. I started feeling bad about not telling everyone what I knew. John knew so little compared to me. I knew why Katherine was in town, I knew about the moonstone, and Klaus, I knew everything. But I felt stuck, frozen. It hadn't hit me yet that this was really happening.

I had to go to the celebration thing for Tyler Lockwood's dad's death, which I completely forgot about. I was leaving my house with Jeremy and Jenna when I got a call from Bonnie. I reached for my phone in my pocket, god the phone was so old. I stared at the phone screen, trying to recall why Bonnie calls Elena, then it hit me. Katherine is with her. I answered the phone and said "I'll be there soon Bonnie, stay safe" and I hung up. It's basically what Elena said in the show. I knew Bonnie would be okay. That's when I started remembering more from the show, things that were supposed to happen today. I remembered Elena's talk with Damon at the lockwood's - 'I was surprised you thought I'd kiss you back'. that comment from Elena. Then Katherine and Damon make out but Katherine tells him he never loved him, it was always Stefan. That led to Damon killing Jeremy. He comes alive with the ring, but still. And then, at the very end of the episode, Katherine kills Caroline, turning her into a vampire.

I couldn't handle it. The basket in my hand dropped to the concrete and I turned to Jenna.

"I'm feeling really sick, I'm sorry I'm going to stay home if that's okay" I blurted out.

"Yeah that's okay Elena" She said. She seemed concerned for me. Everyone cared about Elena so much.

"Thank you, have a great time guys" I said quickly before rushing back into the house. I slammed the door behind me. I couldn't keep trying to stick to the storyline. These were suddenly real people that I could save.

I walked around the house to think, while also familiarising myself with the house and recognising things from the show. I tried to think of why Katherine turned Caroline into a vampire. I knew it was because she needed a vampire, a werewolf, a moonstone and me to give to Klaus so he could break his hybrid curse. But why Caroline? Both the Salvatores and Katherine were at the Lockwood's - I knew that much. And I knew that Stefan talked to Katherine and eventually stabbed him. I had no idea what to do. I could confess, but I doubted anyone would believe me. Then I heard a knock at the door.

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hii i'm sorry this chapter was kinda boring, it was sort of an introduction and it will get more exciting in the future :)