Hello to all,
Go you guys! Thank you to all of the 11 people that submitted an OC! I loved them all! But we can only have one winner. Okay, that was a lie, I had to choose 2 I couldn't decide between the two. Drum roll please... The first winner is LETS WOF PEOPLE, with Astronia. And the second winner is Elbert the cookie, with Midnightstar! Great jobs guys and thank you everyone else, they were all amazing!
To my next point I know this chapter is a bit late and I am sorry about that I was just extermly busy this week. Now, I thought this should be included, this chapter is a bit darker than most of the rest. I will include a warning if I think that any chapters include themes that are a bit extereme. Anyway lets get into it!
WARNING! This chapter includes referenced suicide and also attempted suicide; as well as very dark thoughts.
Disclaimer: I do not own wings of fire, Shimmer and Typhoon are my OC's. Midnight star and Astronia are not my OC's and they belong to the people mentioned above.
My head hurts, my heart hurts, and my mind lashes furiously. Why do I have to be so stupid, what is wrong with me? I hate myself; I really shouldn't even be here, if I had one wish it would be to disappear forever. Every single person I have cared about has turned me away. A flash of angry red filters my vision. In my rage, I reach down and grab the hot coals and let them burn my hands. I want to hurt, I want to hurt myself, I hate myself. I need to emend this feeling of disappointing others, by getting rid of the biggest issue. Me.
All I have ever wanted is to be truly loved someone. I scream in fury. Why, why do I have to suffer, for her mistakes? Just because she gave me a kiss means she hates me. I curl up in a tight ball at the back of the cave and calm myself. I hurt, so bad my body aches and my heart is feels as if it is drowning. Does Shimmer even like me, or was it all a joke so she could fly off with Bucket and leave me here? As perfect as Bucket is and I know Shimmer probably wants him, I need her. I can't let my anger consume me. I grin suddenly, with the prospect of my newest thought what if Bucket just leaves forever and it's just me and her? A small smile wavers in my head at the thought of final happiness. NO, STOP! My mind screams at me. Bucket is my best friend; I cannot think like this, I need to be a good person. I really have to stop this before I do something really bad.
I wait, it would be rude if I went to find them, it is there issue. Another hour or so passes, then before I know it, another. Five hours later, I think angrily, what if something happened to them?! I have just sat here being selfish when I could have been saving them. Argh! I hate everything. Why should I have to care? I get up finally, removing myself from my terrible thoughts and take flight in the general direction I saw them flying away. The stars are starting to rain down on the horizon, I flick my tail with a mighty slash and fly faster. I need to find them. I cannot let them go. I am never losing someone I care about again.
I look at my little sister's quaint, decorated room filled with toys and goodies; I see her little smile when she is moving her presents around. Her snout echoes a happiness to me and my mother and father. I walk up to her, "So, do you like it?" hope shines in my eyes. I look back up at the gleaming jewelry box I crafted her, it was hard work, especially doing it all in secret. "I LOVE it!" Clivia, walks up and gives me a hug, "You're the best big brother ever Typhoon!" Her sweet voice almost makes me cry. My heart sings, and for once all my bad thoughts evaporated from my mind. "I am glad." I whisper in her ear. I feel light and airy, and... good. Like warm and fuzzy, all over my inside. Its like a distant feeling, I have never felt this way. My lips curl into a huge smile and I fall asleep, feeling content for the first time in many years.
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Saving Shimmer - Wings of Fire Story
RomanceShimmer is a 6 year old silver-wing that is heir to the throne. Her life is easy and nearly perfect, until the day her life is thrown upside down. She decides to go on a journey of personal identity but she must be careful on who she can trust.