His name was phil

Another day

It was the 31st of of January 2005 and Dan Howell was doing what he always did on a Saturday morning sit around and wait for something to happen. Dans life wasn't the best, he lived on his own in a really crappy apartment in Manchester. It had been exactly a month since Dan had dropped out of college . He didn't have many friends and he had no idea what he wanted to do with his life. His family was not in contact with him since he admitted to being gay. He hadn't spoken to most of his family for two years .

Dan sat down on his creaky bed and pulled out his laptop from underneath. He scrolled down his Facebook feed. His and few friends he had were actually doing stuff with there lives. Dans eyes started to fill with tears. Was this his life now? All he knew was that this life wasn't worth living. He slowly walked into the bathroom dragging his feet across the carpet. Dan looked in the mirror. Giant black circles formed under his eyes.

"Well Dan you've lasted this long," Dan said, tears rolling down his face. Dan opened the bathroom cabinet where he kept his pills. They were gone.

"Chris!", exclaimed Dan. Chris new about Dans depression and had decided to take away all Dans pills and knives.

Dan sat in the bath tub, with his head in between his knees what was his life? There was a knock at the door it was Chris and Pj. Dan ran back into the bathroom and pretended he wasn't home.

"We know your in there!",shouted Chris. There was no reply. Pj climbed through the window, followed by Chris.

They found Dan lead face down in the middle of the living room floor sobbing.Pj and Chris tried to comfort Dan.

After they had calmed Dan down they started to talk bout YouTube.

"So Dan maybe you could film a video with me and Chris for YouTube?", asked Pj.
"Are u being serious peej of course I won't,"shouted Dan
"Ok just promise you'll check out mine and Chris's channels?"said Pj.
"I promise peej," said Dan.

That night when Pj and Chris left Dan sat at his laptop when he noticed someone had messaged him. It was a girl. Her name was Alice. She had long red Curley hair. She was beautiful. Alice explained to Dan that she was great friends with Pj and that she had been through a lot just like Dan. Alice used to self harm she had cut all up her arms on her profile picture. She had been clean for 4 years. A lot of the comments on her photo was hate but Dan didn't see it that way. He thought she was the most beautiful women he had ever seen Dan and Alice stayed up all night talking.

Thus was the first time Dan had ever truly loved someone of the opposite sex. This was the first time Dan had ever felt normal. This was the first time he felt excepted.