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Izuku

One more week until Christmas break! One week until I can finally see my mom! One week until I can finally relax from school! 

I asked Shoto if he wanted to come along with me to meet my mom. He said he could only come for the last few days of the break, his dad wants him home. I guess that's fair, I just want him to meet my mom. She's gonna be so happy to see someone making me happy! I smile as a reach down and grab my laptop. Shoto wanted to have a movie night with me tonight and asked me to pick out the movie. 

Lately, Shoto has been more..nice? I think maybe because he is in the holiday spirit. I'm not complaining about it though! He went back to his normal self kind of. Just less clingy you know? He's been more focused on his phone. 

And we don't eat in an empty classroom by ourselves anymore. We sit at his friend's table. There were 2 girls and 2 guys. Me, him, and A black haired girl named Yayorozu and another greente like me, her name were Asui. Asui seemed very nice, Yayorozu on the other hand...She keeps touching Shoto. Not that she isn't allowed to. It's just...She's too touchy and Shoto doesn't even try to resist which pisses me off kinda. 

I tried talking to him about him last week and he said that i was being 'over dramatic' and that I need to 'mind my business'. I guess he is right though. He's not hurting me in any way by her touching him...well at least not physically...

Anyway, I finally find a movie I want to watch. it's called grease. It's an oldie but I love it! It's a love movie. I picked out specifically because of that. I called him over, as he cuddled up next to me. I smiled as i got comfortable in his arms, once we settled i started the movie. 

About 30 minutes into the movie though, I felt Shoto's arm slip around my waist. I shifted a little and continued to watch the movie. 5 minutes later, he turned me around to face him. I frowned "What's wrong Sho-"  was cut off by a kiss. "This movie is getting kind of boring..I wanna have some fun" he stated. Gasp! Did he just call one of the best movies in the world boring??

 He should be ashamed. "Shoto, I like this movie so can we finish it please?" I pouted. He stared at me, ready to give in, he snapped out of it.. He grabbed my head and pulled me into another kiss. I don't try to resist anymore and forget about the movie. 

Eventually, the kiss got more heated. Shoto started rubbing the lower part of my back. Slowly traveling his hands towards my ass. Once he reaches his destination, he grips it. I squeak a little bit and pull away." Shotoo "I whine. "Come on Izuku! It's been a few months, how come your not ready??" he asked. 

Why wasn't i ready? I don't even know. I'm kind of scared...when if I can't satisfy him? Or he goes too rough? And then what about the situation with Kacchan? When if he is really my soulmate? Wouldn't this be wrong then? I need to confirm that he Isn't my soulmate first. There is no way that he is even my soulmate, it's too...weird. 

"Izuku i'll be gentle promise" he stated, looking me into my eyes. I hesitated but shook my head no. I couldn't give in. Not finding satisfaction in my answer, he pushed me away from him. "fucking bitch" he got up and headed to his own bed. Wait is he really not gonna lay with me? 

I feel like it's all starting over again, the day he got angry about Kacchan and didn't lay next to me. I soon feel hot tears stream down my face. I thought we were making progress..It's all my fault again, Shit! I always mess up good things. 

I even stopped cutting myself less often because I was becoming happier. I cry even harder as I think about all the times i made Shoto angry or upset because I'm such a mess up. Why couldn't he just accept the way i am?> I'm still human and i make mistakes. Shoto needs ✨Therapy✨, for his anger.

I lay my head on my pillow and once again cry until I am asleep.

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