BLUE HOUR(TXT ONESHOTS)

IT WAS TEN STEPS BEFORE WE TURNED RIGHT | TYUNNING

"Time of death, 7:06 PM"

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"Can you bring me to him?"

I asked my nurse while looking ahead. I held onto a thing which I know is he hand but she seems so hesitant as I beg her.

"Do I have a hundred percent of living?", I boldly asked

"No? So could you help me reach out to him? Not really to say goodbye. I just want to assure him that he can still go on with or without me."

"Okay sir, hold on tight.", she said.

She tightened her grip with my right hand and did the same at my left. She helped me sit down with my legs not touching the floor, enough for her to wear me my shoes in an instance.

"I feel so futile now."

I know she heard me and about me getting this vulnerable and emotional, I know she's tired of listening to me. She just held me again and helped me stand up with her serving as my eyes for my world took my vision away from me.

The world has turned dark but in my futile sight appears a very handsome guy. That guy's making me miss heaven's creations coz I have never seen such beauty before I laid my eyes on him. I miss his smiles and his dimple. I want to see them again.

One

Two

Three until we reached the count of  ten and turned right.

"Sir Hueningkai.'

The nurse passed my hand to another one. Is it Taehyun's?

"Taehyun, please enter twine your fingers with mine. I really want to know if it's you."

I waited for almost two minutes but there wasn't even a finger that tickled my palms. No fingers fit inside the spaces between mine. And no fingers that filled the gaps of mine to at least ease the cold ambience this room's giving.

"He's asleep sir.", I heard the nurse saying.

That was strange. Never in his whole life that he refused holding my hand, even if he's in the middle of his sleep.

"Sorry. Am I disturbing you? I wasn't really sure how long my life will be Taehyun, but I want to make you know that I love you. That accident has caused me so much, that accident even took my sight. But my memory keeps on replaying your smiles, your laughs, your giggles, the way you hide yourself at my broad shoulders whenever you feel embarrassed. Those things, I can never forget that."

His cold hand's not even moving to seal our fingers like what we always do. Somehow, I felt like crying. Is he mad? Mad at me for I was the driver when that accident happened?

He hugged me that night, I remember that. He hugged me before my eyes bled. He hugged me before I fainted.

"Taehyun-ah! I'll be having an eye donor. We're going to see each other soon."

I smiled, but his answers seemed very hard to find. I know how light sleeper he is. I can still remember how drawing closer to his ear at night bothers his sleep so he'll just shush me, comb my hair and hug me until the both of us fell asleep.

Let me try it this time. Estimating where is his ears, I leaned closer and whispered "Good eve".

I head nothing. I didn't hear the "Hueningkai, don't do that again".

Why does it hurts? With him ignoring me like this, I feel like someone's crushing my heart into pieces.

I traced his forehead, down to his nose. That sixty degree pointed nose of his, down to his lips. Those lips that calmed all the demons in me. Those lips that silenced all my insecurities, my doubts and my fears. How I longed to hear him saying my favorite words again, "I love you Huening. I'll stay with you until the end".

I froze in wonder after knowing he wasn't breathing for about a minute straight. I was so stuck with his lips and there was no breaths to tickle my finger. Not like before that he would start to breathe so heavy when I run my fingers from his forehead.

"Taehyun?".

"Sir Hueningkai, you need to go back. The operation's about to start."

"Is someone taking care of my friend?", I asked.

"Yes sir, we are not leaving any patient unattended. Sir we really need to go back."

"Taehyun! Taehyun! Can you please answer me? Just..."

"Hueningkai, I love you. I will stay with you until the end."

That voice, that was very real. It came from him. I then felt someone held my hand, it's the nurse.

"Sir, let's go back."

Though I was hesitant, I still obeyed the nurse. I then let go of Taehyun's hand and heard it dropping to his bed and I even felt more nervous about that. His hand's too cold and he seems lifeless.

"Can we stay for a minute?", I still ask.

"No sir please. Your life's in danger, the operation should push through."

I took a step but my body's too heavy to obey. I felt my whole world spinning around that I ended up falling on the ground before I closed my eyes.

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"It was ten steps before we turned right."

So excited to see Taehyun with my regained vision, I counted the steps we took the night we visited his room so that I can go there alone.

The hospital's more quiet than of that night. I don't know but that night seemed to be a panic for the doctors, nurses and medical staffs.

"One."

The first courageous and the most excited step I took.

"Two."

That silent mix of emotions I was feeling inside. Not really ready to see Taehyun coz I might die the moment I saw his stare and smile.

"Three."

The 3rd felt like the last for my excitement's hitting me so hard.

"Four."

That step where I almost feel I am the only one moving right there, everyone seems freezing coz I only want to see Taehyun in my sight.

"Five."

"Coming through!"

I looked back and saw some medical staff carrying a dead body before they turned right, to where I should be going. For some reasons, my heart thumped and palpitated too many times.

"Taehyun?"

I resumed counting with six. Steps are becoming harder to take, as if tons of steels are on my feet.

"Seven."

I heard people crying as I get closer. That sound of mourning made it scary that I felt my knees are shaking.

"Eight."

A tear suddenly landed on my cheek. Why am I having this fear? No! Taehyun is alive!

"Nine."

That cold hand and skin of Taehyun I touched that night keeps on haunting me now. The voice I heard. That was the last thing he said the night the accident happened. The night when a truck crashed with the passenger's seat of my car, to where he was sitting.

"Ten."

It was ten steps.

It was ten steps before we turned right.

It was ten steps before we turned right and reached the morgue.

I fell down on my knees at the corner the moment I twitched my feet to the right. I hit my chest five times before I finally tear up. I was so shocked that even my tears went back.

"Taehyun!"

I burst out crying. Taehyun, please forgive me. I wasn't able to protect and save you that night.

Your whispers, your voice, your scent, your skin, your soft hands, your hugs, they're still here but you...

You are not here anymore.