This Is My Life -A Kian Lawley fanfiction

Chapter 9

Gianna's" POV

This is the most magical kiss I've ever had. I've never felt this way about Austin's kisses. It got a little more heated until Ricky came in.

"I may be ok with you guys dating, but if I walk in on this one more time, Kian, I will squish you like a bug.

"C'mon Ricky we have to kiss sometimes." Kian said playfully. I loved him. Boyfriend. I loved the sound of that. Wait. I don't know if he's even my boyfriend.

"Kian, are we dating?"

"Of course." Kian says.

He kissed me again and the nurses said I could leave. I went to the bathroom and got dressed, trying not to hurt my scar. We all went home and I laid in my bed.

Kian walks in and lays down next to me.

-insert awkward scene-

All of a sudden there was a knock on my door. "Gianna, can I come in?"

"Crap it's Ricky."I said. "Yes." He walks in with a shocked look on his face. Kian and I were still undressed underneath a blanket. "Ok Kian get dressed and out." Ricky said before walking out. He came back in for a sec and said "You too."

We grabbed our clothes. Kian quickly got dressed and walked out.

As soon as I got dressed and looked presentable again, Ricky walked in.

"I'm going to ask one question. He had protection, right?" Fuck. I never even thought about that stuff. I guess he noticed that I was deep in thought because he said, "Well crap! I trusted both of you to be responsible with this relationship, and you blew it!"

My eyes started watering. I just sat there. You're so stupid! Ricky hugged me. "Ricky, I'm so dumb! I'm just a slut and I don't deserve a brother like you or to live!"

"Don't say that. You can't be thinking suicidal thoughts, or call yourself a slut because you're not!"

I just cried into his chest for a while. I fell asleep.

-Dream-

"You worthless piece of shit!"

"You don't deserve to live!"

"Go die!"

Kian, Ricky, and all my friends were yelling at me.

I couldn't take it.

"Stop yelling at me! Help me someone!" I knew I didn't have a chance so I just sit there crying.

-End Dream-

"Gianna wake up!" I heard my brother yell. I felt that my eyes were hot and red. "What? What happened?"

"You yelled 'stop yelling at me!' And 'help me someone!' And then you started crying. Are you okay?"

"Yea, sorry." I guess he knew I was lying because he gave me that just-tell-me face.

"I had this dream about you, Kian, and all my friends telling me I'm worthless and to go die."

"You're not worthless and definitely should not go die. I love you and if you ever try to leave me again, I'll poop on your pillow."

I laughed. My brother could always make me laugh. After we were done laughing he looked at me seriously. "I'm not kidding. Don't do it again. I'm also taking you to the store to get a pregnancy test. Let's go." He motioned for me to come with him. I quickly got up, grabbed some flip flops, and went.