Thinking of you (dreamnotfound)

Part 1- george

Dreams POV

I start off my day by hoping on my pc to play Minecraft with my friend sapnap and george. We get in a discord call and start talking about what we're gonna do, we decide that we'd stream a man hunt because we haven't posted in awhile. I start my stream off as usual reading donos and seeing subs come in like crazy, it was kinda satisfying and nice seeing how many people liked my content couldn't help but smile at it.

I start the man hunt and start running away from George and sapnap, sapnap is going crazy in the call thinking he's about to get me but no I kill him on the spot he starts screaming George is trying to get him to calm down or really just to shut up I mean who wouldn't after all sapnaps scream was ear piercing, so really ear rape.

We played a little more till I completed the game as sapnap and george whine about not killing me, like how could they kill me let's say I'm the best. After the man hunt we hop on the SMP for a bit still streaming. We talk about life and how things are going I get a few haters but it didn't bother me too much. More people join as sapnap leaves cause he "needed" to go probably just got bored, it's just me and george in the call as I hear the little noise of sapnap leaving the discord call. We talk just as normal as usual talking about how far we live and stuff.

After awhile of streaming me and george decide to end the stream we both say bye but still stay together on call and in game. "So george." "What do you want clay." "OoOh calling me clay I see." "Yep nothing unusual." "Anyways how's life been." "Great I guess why ask." " I donno why not just simple conversation." "Well it's not working, any idea for your next video." "No not yet at least." "Oh shoot sorry dream my mum is calling me I have to go." "Okay bye george." "Bye."

God I loved hearing his voice, hearing him made my day if only I could really know him not through a screen or being able to tell him how I feel I've wanted to for a while but haven't I'm scared he's not gonna like me and I'm gonna get left in the dust alone without he person I've longed to be with over a couple of words.

Yeesh that was a long stream I'd say wonder why he had to go so suddenly. If there's one thing I could do it would be to be with george, sapnap knows I'm gay and like george luckily he's quiet about it, I really thought he wouldn't but thank Jesus. I've talked to sapnap about him for nights over and over again whenever something even so small happens I can't wait to tell him about it I really feel like george is my breath of fresh air and without him I suffocate in my thoughts and emotions and feel like I'm never reaching the surface of this deep blue sea.

TW on the rest (short chapter v short)

I plop down on my bed and think about my life if I could end up with George how I'd be happier then I ever was how I could have someone to talk to but not like a friend like a boyfriend cause that's what I want. I got back up and decided to take a shower to get ready and see what george and sapnap are doing tomorrow. I take my clothes off looking in the mirror I hated what I saw reflecting off the mirror sometimes I wish it was gone more like me I kinda wish I was gone I feel like there's something missing a bit chunk of me is gone I feel like it's never been there but no matter how hard I try it can't be filled, it's only filled with self hatred and guilt.

The showers cold my skins burns and aches for someone, something to grab, someone to hold but whenever I reach out there's a endless hole of... nothing

Hehe sorry for the short chapter I promise to make the next one longer and better. I hope everyone had a nice day and if not it will get better eat something, drink some water, take your medicine, your loved by me and many other people love you, and remember to get some sleep it's very important Good morning, good evening, and Goodnight