Thinking of you (dreamnotfound)

Part 3- bit of a problem

Dreams POV

Nick leaves the call as I laugh to myself thinking about what he said, should I really confess to George, the more I think about it the more wrong it seems he probably doesn't even like me I mean who would I'm kinda ugly and mean and I don't know how to react to feelings from another person I don't think I deserve his love either way he probably doesn't love me I don't even love me.

TW WARNING- talking about self harm and self hatred, don't read if you don't want to stay safe not brave :)

I feel down my wrists I do that when I get sad sometimes the stinging feeling feels.. nice in a way it was really hard me to stop once I started as in self harm and it didn't come in just cutting I would hit myself or fall on purpose trying to get hurt I can stand physical pain but it really felt like a dagger going through my heart with mental pain, it was also hard for me to admit that I hated myself, not for my head though sometimes I lay down in the shower as I drown in my thoughts of what would life be like without me, would george be happier without me here, george is probably straight and is gonna think I'm weird and never talk to me again.

I think if I never talked to George I would have been dead.

(Bad part is over)

George's POV

I was really bored in the car with my parents on the way to see my sister so I wanted to call dream I bet it would make this situation better so I call him and soon enough he answers. "Hey dream I'm bored in a car and want to talk." "Oh okay sweet why you in a car." "My parents are driving to see my sister and her new house." "Oh are you excited." "Not really but at least I'll see my sister." "That's nice." "I guess but car rides are so boring without music." "Hahah yeah I think anyone would agree."

I look up and see my parents talking looking at each other then I look through the window and see a car coming out way fast. "MUM." I yelled she looks and scream then the car crashes and flips I dont hear my mum but only my dad. "GEORGE." I hear dreams voice I smile then answer my voice is about to break. "im here." I say in a faint voice. "George are you okay." "I don't know." "George it's okay im- I'm coming right now." "But dream you have to buy a plane ticket and-." "George you can't stop me I'm coming no matter what.

Dreams POV

I only hear his scream and a loud crash I can't tell you how scared I was I wanted to throw up but then I hear his voice and feel better but still worried for him. I look online and the next planes leaves IN 6 HOURS. Damn I need to go now I quickly buy it and get ready as fast as I can, I tell George I'm coming and to send his address. Soon enough after packing everything I need and getting ready a strike of anxiety comes over me, what if George doesn't want me there it's not like I'm going because I like him I'm just being a good friend.

I get in my car quickly and drive to the airport just about getting on my plane as I'm in line this girl starts hitting on me at least that what I thinks she's asking where I'm going who I'm seeing if I have a girlfriend. "So do you have a girlfriend." "No." "So are you single cause like hears my number if you want it ;)." "No im good I have a boyfriend." "Oh." The people around us start laughing at her and I do too. "Sorry." "Oh no it's okay I'm just gay." I was gay but I don't have a boyfriend I would love to have a boyfriend but I don't think they would want me.

I get to my seat and sit down next to a girl who looked my age I didn't want to talk because all I could think about was George and how he could be really hurt he literally got in a car crash and could b-. "Hey so I don't usually talk to people but your really cute do you have a girlfriend or anything." No sorry I'm gay I have a boyfriend." "Oh I'm so sorry." "No no it's okay I don't care." "So what's he like, you boyfriend." "Oh he's very nice he helps me with everything when I'm sad or get scared he's a very good person." "He seems very nice I'm glad you found someone." "Thank you."

I kinda got sad for a bit knowing that I wasn't actually dating george in fact he's probably straight he never says I love you back I wonder if he'll be happy that I'm coming to see him.

The plane is about to land when I get a call from George the phone says George💕 I can tell the girl saw his name in my contact cause she smiled and turned her head a bit I quickly answered, I heard nothing just sniffs "George are you okay are you there." "dream." "Yeah I'm here." "M-my mum is dead." "George omg are you okay don't worry the plane is literally about to land and I'm coming where are you." "The hospital." "Okay don't worry I'm coming." As I said that the planes landed. "George the plane landed I'm coming do you want to stay on call." "Yes please." "Okay no problem."

"What's happening to your boyfriend." The girl asks my face turns red as I realize I wasn't muted I quickly pressed mute and told her. "His mum died in a car crash he was in the car that's why I'm coming." "That is very sweet where are you coming from." "Florida." "Wow that must be love then." "I guess it is." "I hope everything goes well don't worry I can get you out of here fast I know the people on the plane." "Okay thank you." She then proceeds to yell to the front. "This mans boyfriend is in the hospital he needs to go right now." My face was a tomato. "Um thank you so much." "Of course really quick want to exchange numbers." "Yeah." I give her mine as she gives me hers then I run out the door grab my bag and I got in a taxi.

Soon enough I'll see him in person my leg bounces as excited over comes me.