Absquatulate- To leave without saying goodbye

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I realized, that no matter what I would say now, it had no impact on the situation whatsoever. Yet I still gave it a try. ,,Let me become a death eater, not him.". Everyone now looked at me. Voldemort's gaze slowly wandered onto me and Draco's eyes widened while his mouth slightly parted to protest. ,,He doesn't have the guts to do what needs to be done.", I say quickly, to stop Dray from saying anything. ,,Is that so?" Voldemort asked in a monotonous voice. ,,Yes, my Lord.". He slowly started to walk over to me. ,,You promise to be loyal and to never betray me.", I nodded ,, Then I guess you will do too." and that is when he roughly grabbed my arm and pressed the tip of his wand into my forearm. It was as if my soul got torn apart, I knew I was grimacing because of the pain, but to my satisfaction I didn't make one sound. Voldemort lifted his Wand and looked at his work, the dark mark. He began to smile and walked away slowly. ,,You know what to do, You all are dismissed." And that was when all the other death eaters left as quickly as possible. I could feel Draco's and the rest of my family's intense staring, but it wasn't until everyone but them left, that I turned to look at them. Dray's eyes were red and watering. My mom looked as if she was about to faint and my dad, he just stared at me with no emotion. I didn't say anything, I just left the room and walked upstairs petrified about what I had just done to save my brother. The only positive thought that kept me going, my brother. At least he was spared. I heard somebody sprinting up the stairs and then burst through my door. I slowly turned around and looked into Draco's grey eyes. Him and I just stood there for a while before he walked over to me and embraced me. It wasn't until then, that I started crying. Hot salty tears ran down my cheeks and Draco just gripped me even more tight. ,,Why would you do that, El?", he asked. ,,For you I'd bleed myself dry." I mumbled into his shoulder.

The next few days I didn't leave my room. Narcissa, my mother and Draco would look after me every now and then and bring me food and water, but I didn't touch anything.

It was the day we had to leave for Hogwarts, I always hated going there, since my classmates are literal Idiots and people from the other houses were just too biased to befriend a Slytherin, but to be fair, I was too. This year going back would be even more of a challenge. Knowing I would have to kill Dumbledore while my brother will be mending the cabinet in the room of requirement. He offered to help and even tho I didn't want him to be involved at all, I knew I wouldn't be able to do all that by myself, so I decided to take his offer.