If you loved me, why'd you leave me? [Killugon]

-A little plan-

Killua pov
The sun was glittering over the lake horizon it reminded me of the time me and Gon went fishing on Whale Island, I wonder if I can go fishing with him again.  Ever since me and Gon split up I have been taking Alluka around the world and showing her views she can never see trapped up in the mountain.  But every place or view we go to Gon always somehow makes his way into my mind.

"Do you still miss him big brother?" Alluka looked at me with her big shimmering blue eyes.

I didn't take my eyes off of the lake and just replied with a short "Yeah,".

"Have you even tried texting him?" Alluka moved her eyes back to the lake.

"Like I said Alluka my goal is to show you around the world-"

"Have you tried texting him big brother?" Alluka repeated.

"No I haven't." I sighed.  Alluka looked towards me and pouted.

"I don't want to be the root of all your problems if the only reason you aren't chatting with Gon is because of me then text him big brother I want you to be happy," Alluka announced.

"I am happy Alluka you aren't the root of all my problems don't say that," I fake smiled towards her.

"Big brother what is your real smile?  Because my whole life I can tell you've been giving me fake smiles to keep me happy back at the mountain."  Alluka signed. "But this one is different back then I could see anger and hatred in your eyes, now I just see sorrow and regret."

"I don't know what you're talking about Alluka.  Now how about we go and look for another place to check out?" I continued smiling at her gesturing to go back to our room.  Alluka figured big brother doesn't want to talk to her about his sorrows most likely because she was the start of them all.  But he never comes to her to talk about his problems which saddens Alluka all she wants to do is help him but she can't even do that.  Or can she?

"Ok big brother let's go back," Alluka chirped and started skipping back to their room.  I followed behind Alluka with my hands in my pockets.

Back at the room I opened up my blue covered laptop and look for other views that would be nice to visit.

"Big brother?" Alluka asked.

I continued looking at my laptop, my eyes did not move from the screen. "Yes Alluka?"  It was hard for me to maintain eye contact with anyone who knows about me and Gon's friendship especially Alluka.

"I wanna go to school.  Can I go to school?" Alluka questioned.  She had a hopefully feeling in her eyes which Killua couldn't tell.

"No, it's too dangerous being apart from each other.  I can homeschool you if you like."  I coldly replied.  This did not make Alluka give up.

"Big brother I wanna go to school.  I wanna meet new people.  Homeschooling isn't the same," Alluka frowned. "It's not dangerous, school is supposed to be a safe environment.  Plus I can change my name and my look if you like big brother if that makes you feel any better."

"No."

"Why nottt, do you really think I can't defend myself?  Why would I have to defend myself it's school big brotherrr."  Alluka pouted.

"I don't want to almost lose you too." I shoved my laptop back under my desk and left to go take a shower.

Alluka pov

Big brother hasn't been on another mission since the last mission he went with Gon, and it's been over a year since then.  Big brother has only been getting more protective over me. I grumbled and jumped off my bed.  I walked over to brother's side of the room and looked around for his phone.  If he's not gonna contact Gon I will.