neozone | nct ships

14

"stupid dumb fucking shit stupid dumb dumb dumby hetero normal world stupid shitty dumb.." chenle muttered aggressively as he scribbled on a random bit of paper.

remembering jisungs words. "WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE A GIRLFRIEND OR SOMETHING!!"

he was..angry. angry at the world. angry at society. angry at jisung..angry at himself..

"everything alright in here??"

chenle calmed down slightly as he heard kun. just the person to talk to when feeling down.

"hyung.." chenle frowned.

kun walked over to the latter and sat down next to him. "whats wrong?"

chenle just scrunched the bit of paper he was scribbling on and sighed. "honestly..i think i am."

ever since jisung had went off on him chenle had been thinking. maybe my parents were right all along..i am annoying. i am so wrong i am a mistake..all i do is make things worse

"you are not wrong." kun smiled at chenle before reassuringly putting his hand on the other shoulder.

"kun..why do i mess everything up?" chenles voice broke as he started to tremble.

the older didnt hesitate to pull him into a calming hug.

"you are an angel." kun whispered gently. "please talk to me..tell me your worries."

society had put chenle in a tight box with strict views and he felt trapped. trapped in the views of society. for years he was told what was wrong and what was right. but chenle didn't want to believe them. society is corrupted and he knew this. however of all those years he still feels scared of the world..the hate..the terrifying looks he got and the disappointed glare of his parents.

"you are a failure to this family.."

"we dont want you and your dirty views here!!"

chenle had enough of it. all those years of being told he is wrong. hiding his true self just to please others. he couldn't do it anymore..he wasn't going to feed into the corrupt society.

"youre wrong."

n-no..

"all you think is wrong."

no..

"youre disgusting."

no.

"we didnt raise you to be like this."

no!

"what is wrong with you?!"

NO

chenle wasn't going to hide anymore.

"kun.." chenle almost whispered. "im gay."

fuck society.

chenle may hate himself for being pushy and annoying but no longer would he allow himself to hate who he really is. who he really wants to be.

even if that person was the stupid person who fell in love with his best friend.

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unedited

hello babies im back!! first of all i would like to apologise for the short chapter..i am updating on sunday to make it up to you guys. anyways i hope u enjoyed to chapter and if u did make sure to support me ^-^ have a good day/night see u sunday !!!!