neozone | nct ships

18 - home

"do you sometimes miss japan?" sicheng asked gently as him and yuta laid down on the floor of the olders room.

it was the morning after the group meeting and it was an understatement to say people were stressed. barely any members slept and the ones who did got nowhere near enough.

yuta spent the night drawing in his worn out sketchbook and from time to time admiring sichengs delicate features as the younger slept in yutas unoccupied bed.

ever since the accident at the race course sicheng had refused to go back to his room at night. he was worried that something would happen to yuta in the night and no one would be there to help him.

obviously as one would yuta tried to convince him he was gonna be fine alone however sicheng is one stubborn person who is also very cute and convincing. in the end yuta lost the battle and sicheng got his way. like anyone is shocked though.

"yeah i miss it sometimes.." the older paused before turning on his side to face sicheng. "but neozone feels like a new home to me."

to a stranger looking in on their relationship it would look like yuta and sicheng were dating. however in reality it is...well complicated.

both boys face their own issues and even though not saying it out loud have expressed they have a romantic feeling for the other.

"mmm i feel that way too." sicheng smiled. "but i miss my mothers cooking.." yuta just chuckled slightly at sichengs words as he felt the same.

it is times like these when the two of them enjoyed eachothers company the most. calm conversations with a relaxing vibe.

for the large percentage of time the boys feel happy with their relationship and they carry on as what they are now. however there is a lingering thought in their minds of what their relationship could be.

what they could be.

what more they could be.

but these are just thoughts. lingering thoughts that are left alone. put to the back of the mind and forgotten about.

but what if yuta didnt want to forget the thought?

what if he wanted more?

what if he wanted to finally act with meaning and show what he truly feels?

no..

he is scared.

fear is a common emotion. everyone has fears. whether you have a fear of heights, spiders, death..everyone has fears.

yuta didnt want to feel scared anymore. just a little flame of confidence in his chest could really help him. but then a flame always gets put out.

fires cannot burn forever.

the flame dies down.

he is scared again.

scared of messing up a relationship so dear to him. he wants more but he doesnt want to destroy something already so beautiful. so yet again the thought it pushed back. pushed back to the back of his mind and forgotten.

thats what lingering thoughts are for anyways.

"thank you for being here with me."