Dear people, I hope you're alright, because I'm not.
I'm feeling so overwhelmed and sad, because I didn't achieve what I hoped I did, and now I feel soooooo sad (that also sounds sooooooo stupid). I'm sorry. I don't even know why I'm writing about this stuff here.
I'm actually realizing that I feel al little bit better, than before, now that I wrote it down. Maybe that's a solution to my sadness, who knows.
Do you sometimes feel like, until you write a thing down you don't actually realize, that the thing you're feeling is real and not just a thought ? Like when you say it out loud, but for me saying it out loud doesn't help. Writing, makes me realize things because I usually follow this steps: I think, write what I think and then read what I wrote, and that makes me conscious about what I'm feeling or thinking. Maybe you could try this method too, and see if it helps you.
When you are sad, you do things you normally wouldn't do, like: being depressed, doing stupid things(like watching a sad movie that makes you cry, even if you promised to yourself to DON'T cry, and that way to end crying more than you should), eat a lot or don't it at all, .... . I think we do this things because, is our way to express what we're feeling, and not just because we're sad. A lot of people say to not be sad. WHY IN THE HELL SHOUDN'T WE BE SAD, IF WE ARE SAD?! I mean, we need to understand what we're feeling and process it so we can take our time and go back to our normality.
So sad.
Another thing I've experimented all this years, is that is easier to talk to someone we don't know than just to talk with our parent's or friends. I don't know why is this thing helpful , but I promise that if I'll found an answer in the internet I'll tell you for sure.
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If you are still reading this it means that you probably are someone that maybe is being thru all this stuff too and you don't know what to do. Thanks for reading!❤️
