The memories// Sequel

16

I have no words, I loved writing this chapter!

2 months later

Jaden

My hands were placed firmly against the shower wall. I was facing the shower head. The warm water fell down my body with ease. Regardless of all the bullshit going on in my life I was at peace in that moment. My life's a mess. I'm not afraid to admit it. Yet it's not a bad mess.

I turned the water off and stepped out of the shower. I dried off and then placed the towel around my waist before walking into my room. My door opened and I felt her eyes meet mine immediately. These past two months have been quiet between us. We hang out but not a lot. Every time I look at her I remember she isn't mine. She's been trying to figure out life. Figure out what she was to me

Sometimes she'll sneak into my room when she has a bad dream and cuddle herself into me. I don't mind it I'm just hoping she gets her memory back. I don't want to loose her forever. If all I have her for is a friend then that's fine too.

Her breath hitched when she realized my state and she covered her eyes quickly. As if she's never seen my naked before. Yet again In her mind she hasn't.

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to talk with you" She spoke softly

"It's fine. What's up?" I asked her as I walked to my closet and shut the door to it to make her more comfortable.

"Um I was just wondering if you were alright?" She asked me. I placed boxers on and walked out of the closet just to mess with her. I loved seeing her get flustered

Her reaction was the same. She covered her eyes trying not to impose. I chuckled and grabbed some sweatpants to placed over my boxers

"I'm fine" I told her "and I'm covered" I spoke with a slight chuckle

She removed her arm from her eyes and watched my movement. I walked to my bed and began to fix the comforter from Nala messing it up. She loves Nala but doesn't remember that she's her dog so I've been taking care of her. At the moment she was curled up on top of my pillow. Mans best friend

"You don't seem fine" she spoke shutting my bedroom door and walking towards me slowly

"Well I am" I said turning to face her. My jaw clenched when she rode stretched cause her pajama top to raise. A large scar placed under her rib cage caught my attention. My poor girl

I closed the space between us by walking to her the rest of the way. Her curves were covered beautifully by the silk pajamas I got her a while ago. Not that she knew that. It was her favorite set I had ever bought her. And damn did she make it look good

My hands trailed down her arms and rested on her waist pulling her in for a hug. My fingers played with the slit at the bottom of her shorts slightly

She gladly returned the hug and placed her head on my chest. Her shortness was always one of my favorite things. My hands trailed over the scars on her back and she shivered in my arms. Sometimes I wonder if it's better this way?

She doesn't remember what happened to her, but she also forgot about me. That's fine though. I will live as long as she's happy.

"I know that I broke your heart" she softly spoke pulling away

My eyes trailed to the softness of her lips. The lips I used to kiss. Her eyes realized my trail and tilted my chin to meet her eyes

"You didn't break my heart" I whispered back

"I just forgot about us" she said placing her hands on my bare chest "I forgot about you" she placed a kiss to my peck

I sighed and placed a kiss to her forehead "maybe it's for the better" I whispered even though I knew it wasn't true. I wanted her back

"Why?" She asked

"Because you don't remember him either" I said she knew exactly who I was referring to

"I loved you. I can feel it. I can feel this special place that you had in my heart" she whispered with tears forming in her eyes

I didn't know what to say. She left me speechless at her words. The sad part is that she has no idea what all this is doing to me. My eyes met hers and I know she's the women I want to spend my life with. Yet the women I want can't have me.

"It's not right for you to force yourself to be with me. I don't want you to pretend" I told her

"I'm not pretending. I'm trying to remember" she said and I heard her breathing hitch at her voice cracked

I tried. I showed her our photos. I showed her our special spots. I made her the hot coco she loved so much but none of it worked. She's just simply forgotten anything that had to do with us.

"And that's okay" I told her but it felt like a lie

"Is it?" She asked pulling away from my embrace "you have to force yourself to look at me and not want to kiss me. Not want to touch me. Not want to call me yours" she rambled

"Your right" I told her walking toward her "But it's better then not having you in my life at all"

I grabbed her wrist and twirled her around into my chest. The look in her eyes was lustful and it made me almost take her right there.

"I want you to show me" she spoke quietly looking at the ground

"Show you what?" I asked her furrowing my brows

"I want you to show me what you did to me. I want you to touch me, and to kiss me, and to show me that I meant something to you" she softly spoke

I was taken aback at her words

"I'm not sure that's a good idea" I breathed out she was making my heart beat faster

Her hand placed itself on my chest and she looked into my eyes. One of the things she got me with was she contact. I love her use of eye contact.

"I know it's not a good idea, but I can't help but feel this emptiness, but then I look at you and I don't feel alone anymore. I don't know what it is but my heart knows what my brain doesn't" She said to me

Our foreheads met and I felt her nose brush up against my own. Her breath was hot when she parted her lips. One slight movement and I wouldn't be able to control myself with her

"I can't help but feel your touch on my hips and know it's right. The way your hands roam down my waist." she said seductively

"Jaysea-" I started but she cut me off

"I know you feel it too. I know you want me" she said running her nails down my back

"Of course I feel it to" I whispered

"Then let me"