Artist Love Better | Jensoo

Chapter 9: I Suck at This

Jennie stood at the restaurant's reception and nodded to the young lady who walked towards her smiling.

"Hello Ms. Kim. Your table is ready." The girl said as started walking towards the table placed by one of the windows.

She watched as Jisoo smiled at the girl and took her seat. Mimicking the action, she took the menu from the waiter's hand as Jisoo did the same. She noticed the surprised expression on the raven's face as another waiter poured fresh water in one of the tumblers on the table. As the man walked away, she smiled at the girl, putting down her menu.

"I hope you like Italian food."

"I do. This is a really nice place." She watched as Jisoo looked around.

"I come here quite often. The food is amazing." She said as she looked back at the menu.

Jennie felt slightly uneasy. She wasn't sure about what to say or do. It was the first time she was out on a date and she didn't even know if that was really a date. She glanced over the menu to look at Jisoo and noticed that the raven was not choosing her food but looking right at her.

"Is everything ok?" She asked as the raven continued to look at her.

"Yes. Well, I'm just wondering..."

"Wondering?"

"Why did you invite me out tonight?"

Jennie widened her eyes in surprise. She didn't really know how to answer that question. Because Irene convinced her to do so? That's not good enough. And it's not completely true. Irene did contribute to the decision but deep down, Jennie knew that she was intrigued by the raven girl with brown eyes. She wasn't quite sure about what all that meant or how she was feeling, but the bottom line was that she simply wanted to spend time with Jisoo Kim. The thought of it scared the shit out of her because the only memories she had of this type of feeling led her to dark places inside her mind.

"Why not?" She managed to reply.

She held Jisoo's gaze for a moment hoping the girl wouldn't insist on the question because the truth was, she didn't really know the answer. Relief filled her chest as she saw Jisoo smile timidly and turn her attention back to her own menu.

She felt, however, that if questions were to be asked, maybe that was the right moment. She knew her mind was a puzzle right now so she thought that maybe, if she just asked a question the simplest way possible, she would start getting the answers she needed to perhaps start understanding her own feelings. Taking a deep breath, she put her menu down once more.

"Why did you kiss me?"

She watched as Jisoo looked over her menu and met her gaze. She felt her heart starting to beat slightly faster with the imminence of Jisoo's response.

"Why not?" The raven said with a small grin.

"Touché." Jennie said, broadening her smile.

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Jisoo looked at her reflection in the fancy mirror and sighed. She took the lip gloss from her purse and lightly applied it to her lips. A million thoughts ran through her head at the same time, making her feel dizzy. If she was out of her comfort zone before, now she was miles away from it. Taking another deep breath, she leaned over the bathroom counter and tried to control her anxiety. She shouldn't have come, she should have just stayed home and forgot about Jennie. She shouldn't even have kissed the girl in the first place, let alone go out on a date in a fancy restaurant. What did Jennie want with her? Why was she inviting her out? And more importantly, why was she feeling so nervous around her? Why was she feeling so drawn to her? She didn't know if she could do this, it was too soon, too scary. She closed her eyes and took another deep breath, trying to shut the voices in her head.