Doesn't Match

I'm Okay

what the hell am i talking about??

sigh..

I smacked my head and blinked twice to get my thoughts off of the sentence that I just said. "Ow" I caressed my head after smacking it. "I didn't know I was that strong.. that hurt.."

(wow, ok)

After arriving at our classroom, I quickly went to my desk and faced Yoshi who is rummaging his bag "Yah, Yoshi hyung.." I whispered, and he hummed "I was thinking.. what was the name of your cousin?" I asked "Oh? You're interested in him?" he chuckled "Huh? Oh, no.. I just saw him drag Mashi somewh- wait," I stopped "Where is Mashi?" I wandered around the place "Wait, did you say he dragged Mashiho?" I turned my face back on him and nodded "Ah.. did you do something?" he asked "Like what..?" I tilted my head a bit "I mean.. what did he do earlier?" erm.. am I allowed to say this here? with all these people? "Well.. um, let's go to a different place first." I stood up "Ah.. okay, wait, lemme fix my things first." I nodded and he started putting his things inside his bag and a few books under his desk and we went together outside avoiding people nearby.

"Soooo.. what did he do?" he asked once more "He.. um.. " oh gosh. how should I say this. "He..?" Yoshi widen his eyes "K-Kissed me..?" I said shyly "Oh, did he?" he chuckled "Y-Yeah.. I didn't know why he suddenly did that.." "I know why." he looked at me "You do? Why?" I asked in curiosity "Because~~~" I was anticipating for his answer "Ah, no, I can't tell you." seriously? "Whyyyy?" I whined "Coz it has to be him that will tell you." he replied "I tried to ask him about the things that I'm so confused about but he didn't respond.. then he-" "kissed you the day you asked him?" Yoshi cutted my words off

(is "cutted" a real word?)

"Y..Yeah.." I replied and he chuckled once more he surely know what's going on.. but he won't tell me :(

"Come on hyung, tell me what's going on.. did I do anything wrong?" I pouted "Hmm.. fine, I'll tell you a clue." I smiled "He's confused if he'll take the risk or not. That's all I have to say." he's confused of taking the risk of what? "But what kind of risk?" I asked "Mmm.. loving someone again."

loving someone again..

again?

did Mashi had a past relationship?

"Okay, who was the guy before?" I asked in annoyance "Woah! you looked somehow angry about it." he laughed "Who wouldn't?? I mean, why would someone hurt him like that? He doesn't deserve that." I kept a straight face. "Yes, you're right. But his pain is now getting worse." worse?? "Is it because of.. me?" I stared at him "I said too much. I have to respect his privacy.. I'm sorry Junkyu, you have to be the one who'll ask those questions to him. But please promise me one thing." I moved closer "What's that?" "Always be on his side, whatever happens. Okay?" he raised his pinky finger "I promise." we entwined our pinkies together don't worry hyung..

I'll be on his side..

I won't leave.

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What should I do now?

Tch.

What's the point. It will always be the same.. they all are..

No one understands me..

Not even myself..

I'm not worth it..

I don't deserve anything. I'd rather die than being killed over and over again without a single blood all over my body.

I've decided..

It'll be fine. Just act normal.

I'm Fine.

I'm Good.

I'm Alright.

I'm.. okay.

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Heyoow~~ 👋 I won't be able to update tomorrow at night that's why I updated now hehe😁 I'm not sure if I won't be able to.. but we'll see.

🦋 • kyunieroons • 🦋