Doesn't Match

You.. Love Me?

After class was over, I quickly said to him to follow me outside, and he did.

We grabbed our bags and went outside, he followed me from behind but I don't want that, I got a hold of his wrist and pulled him beside me. We walked outside school to find a place so we can talk without any distractions.

Minutes of walking and we finally found the perfect spot. There are some people walking, but thankfully the park was so peaceful, I just admire the silence.

"Woah.. I've never seen this before." he uttered, "It's beautiful isn't it?" I said and looked at him "Yeah." he looked back.

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"Erm, Kyu?" stop spacing out god dammit "Oh, yeah. Let's sit down first." we placed our bag next to us as we sat on the ground. "I.. uh, can I ask about the topic you and Yoshi hyung talked about earlier? If that's ok.." I started

look, I need to get straight to the point and then I'll ask him why he did that thing to me. I need answers.

"It's.. okay." he said "I'll listen."

Hours of talking about the topic and I listened carefully. He then mentioned that he was in a relationship in the past but it didn't work out because of some reasons. I didn't know about the Haruto thing that's going on cause he was stuttering and wanted to avoid saying his name.. I only knew the guy but I wonder why Mashiho is like this whenever he almost say its name. "I wanna know." I said "About what?" he asked "About you and Haruto. What happened back then?" he heaved a sigh.

I already knew about his ex except for the name but why is this “Haruto” involved?

“You see.. Haruto knew about our relationship back then and he knew that he didn't really love me. And now.. I..” what's making him like that? “You.. what?”

“Can we.. talk about something else?” he's avoiding it.. “Mashiho, what's wrong?” I asked “Tell me, I'll help.” I went to sat beside him “It's n-nothing. Don't worry about it.” he smiled, I know that's fake. “Now you're making me more worried.” I placed my hand on his back and caressed it. “What did Haruto do to you?”

Flashback~

“Mashiho!” a student started shouting the youngers name everywhere “Mashiho!!” she shouted once more “Shut the fuck up!” she hurriedly went up to where the voice came from and saw Mashiho crying on his own.

she went up to him “What do you want?!” Mashiho shouted “I.. just wanted to apologize.” he laughed “Apologize?! are you kidding me?? right after what you just did? You really have the guts to show your fucking face in front of me!?” he punched the shelve next to him “Hey! what's going on over there?!” the librarian stood up “Get out. Right now!” the librarian added. Mashiho stomped his feet while going outside, he sprinted after he was completely out of the room. The girl followed him “Stop following me!” he furrowed his brows, “I need to tell you something important!” he stopped “Gosh you're so annoying!” she heaved a sigh “I know. I'm sorry, please, just listen to me!” she begged “It's okay if you won't accept my apology but please, this is important! give me a chance and I won't show my face to you ever again.” she added “You better.” he replied and the girl, named Yuri, the one that Haruto ordered to make Mashiho suffer. She told everything to Mashiho even when Haruto warned her not to tell anyone about their deal.

Mashiho's jaw dropped and punched the nearest tree as hard as he could. He let his tears flow down over his cheeks. He cried until he felt his legs getting weaker and he sat down next to the tree he punched just now. Yuri felt guilty. She should've declined the deal, she knew Haruto won't date her but she decided to do it anyway. She blamed herself and felt sorry.

Mashiho continued to cry, screaming hundreds of questions to the world.

“Why are you doing this to me?”
“What did I do to deserve all of this??”
“Why are you so cruel!?”
“Do you hate me that much??”
“Did I make you angry? because of what?? for being gay??”
“I'm a mistake in your eyes.”
“I just want to love someone.”
“I just want to be loved by someone.”
“But you took it all away from me.”
“My mom? she doesn't no any shit.”
“Y'all should give me an oscar award, (laughs) I'm the worlds best pretender!”

He even questioned his birth

“I hate it here!!”
“Why did you make me live in a world full of bullshit?!”
“This is insane.”
“I wish I was never born.”
“I wish it wasn't like this.”

“If only we could build a time machine.”
“If only I had powers to manipulate the time and do the right thing.. so that I won't be fooled by the people around me.”

“If only..”

~end of flashback~

“Mashi?” nothing but silence replied to Junkyu “A-Are you ok?” he asked “I.. I'm sorry if I had to ask those questions, I just—”

“I love you.” I stunned and it became quieter than before.

“You.. love me?”

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skskskahhh ano naaAaaA

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char.