WARNING THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SELF HARM!
Back to Layla's POV
1:30 am
I get done talking to Jayda so I hop in the shower, I feel so gross! Everytime I close my eyes I see Dion's face when he was on top of me, I wash my body and I go down yo my thighs, I see bruises from Dion holding my thighs hard! I try to wash my thighs the best I can, but I keep having flashbacks of him touching me! I throw up thinking about it!
I get out of the shower, put my tampon in, then put on some sweats and a long sleeve shirt. I don't want anyone to see my body right now, I brush my teeth and my lip starts bleeding from Dion. I left the bathroom and let Jayda take a shower, she says she's going to take Dion back, that makes me want to tell her, but I just can't I'm too ashamed.
I drift off to sleep and wake up at 3:20 from a nightmare about Dion, I go down stairs to get something to drink, I keep seeing and hearing Dion yell at me and talk to me. I throw my glass of water out of anger and watched it shatter, I picked a piece of glass up, then lifted my sleeve and cut my wrist, I'm guessing I woke Leon up from throwing the glass, cause he came down stairs as soon as I dropped the piece of glass.
I quickly put my sleeve down as soon as I saw him, "What the fuck happened you scared me Laylay!" Leon said "I'm sorry it slipped out my hand I'll pick it up" I said my mom comes out of her room oh shit I didn't want to wake her up too "what are you doing up Lele (Leon's nickname) and Laylay?" My mom says "nothing momma I just couldn't sleep and I woke Lele up cause I accidentally dropped the glass go back to sleep I'll pick it up!" I say "ok what happened to your face baby" my mom said "some girls tried to jump me at school" I say crying my mom holds me "baby what's wrong" my mom says "nothing mom I'm just stressed go back to sleep" "ok I love you" she says walking back into her room!
"I love you too momma!" I pick up the glass, "Laylay" Leon says, "huh" I say "you good?" Leon says, "yea I'm straight my bad go back to sleep!" I say "ok goodnight I love you" Leon says, "goodnight I love you too!" I say, I clean up the glass and go back upstairs. It takes two hours for me to drift to sleep, all I could think about was Dion and if I should tell anyone or not!
I wake up and check the time on my alarm clock it says 9:00 am I'm exhausted Jayda comes out of the bathroom "hey besti I didn't want to wake you up my bad" she says "you cool you didn't wake me up!" I say "I'm bout to take a shower!" I say I get out of bed and go to the bathroom, I lock the door and play sad music, I see a eyebrow razor I pick it up and reminisce if I should cut myself or not I just did it. I cut myself three times, then took my tampon out cause I'm not on my period I just had spotting.
I get in the shower and wash my body, I get out the shower and brush my teeth, I then do a full face of makeup I haven't done this in a long time you can still see my scars but I don't really care! I put a bathrobe with long sleeves on so Jayda doesn't see my cuts, I go into my walk in closest and put on some dark green cargo pants on, I then throw on a black tight fitting long sleeve shirt, I put some black forces on and walk out my closet.
"Damn besti you look good!" Jayda says "thanks boo! You already know you look good" I say "thank you!" Jayda says "mhm" I say I go down stairs and see Derik and Leon on the couch chilling, I don't feel like talking to him! My mom is cooking and Lee-Asia just walked in the door "hey Laylay!" Asia says running over to me everybody looked at me as soon as she said that omg! She runs into me hurting me "ow" I say "I missed you" Asia says squeezing me "ow ASIA MOVE!" I yell as I push her she looks at me with tears in her eyes!
"Asia I'm sorry you were hurting me my body is sore but I missed too!" I say hugging her and kissing her forehead "what's wrong with you" my mom says "nothing I just don't feel good" I say "well the foods almost done!" My mom says "I'm not hungry" I say "your always hungry" everybody says including Jayda walking down the stairs I know my mom doesn't mind her being here we've been besties since we were in pre k "CAN YALL GET OFF MY BACK I DONT WANT TO EAT!" I yell running upstairs with tears in my eyes "I will beat yo ass if you yell at me again" my mom says Jayda follows me upstairs as well as Leon and Asia.
