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⚠️⚠️ TW: MENTION OF DEATH & CUTTING ⚠️⚠️
written on November 23, 2020
M/n : mom's name

In the middle of the night I woke up suddenly from a weird dream. I just sat there not bothering to move as I try to remember as best I can what happened in the dream. It felt so familiar yet it didn't, like it happened somehow. I finally gave up and getting myself ready to fall back to my needed sleep Aaron's arm that's wrapped around my sleep pulled me slowly to him.

" stop...moving.." he grumbled with annoyance, he rushed himself just enough for his chin to rest on top of my head.

Sometimes I don't understand how we got to this point, between him and I. I honestly don't remember how we became friends or ended up this close. My mind feels so foggy as I try to go back to the earliest memory I have.

That's so weird, why can't I remember anything...

Hmm..

Maybe I'm overthinking it

I'll ask in the morning

Which reminds me why I chose Aaron of all people to be so close with. I remember now being sweet and shy yet by the middle of last year something in him changed. There was a complete shift into his appearance along with personality.

It's stupid to even think this but for a while I couldn't really tell if he is the Aaron I knew

The unexpected responses and action caught be off guard a lot

He did get frustrated on many occasions when I acted differently around him.

I honestly didn't know what to say everything was happening so fast I couldn't comprehend all of his bold actions he wouldn't dare say the few months beforehand

Then I felt so selfish at the time I acted out myself with his change, this emotion was so new to me I felt bad that I wasn't being a good friend, instead I lashed out at the change. Maybe I do have an issue with change? Even now I'm not sure how to fully express it

Of course took some time to get use to it but I've tried to hold in my opinion with his lack of empathy with certain situations along with him saying the first thing that come up in that head of his

My eyes opened as wide as it can, his hand slowly move side to side on my waist

NOPE NOPE NOPE

THAT'S IT I'M DONE

My body tenses up as the uncomfortable feeling sends a shiver down my spine. I begin to move my body in a motion that mimics tossing and turning till he eventually lets go of me to turn his body on the other side of the bed. Then I knew he was to be awake. I continued to move around to not blow my cover.

PLEASE LET IT BE MORNING SOON

I cover my side of the blankets onto more of my body. Weirdly enough it reminds me of the time he crossed the line When I knew he was in a relationship. Jamie and him come home drunk, Aaron goes into my room trying to hide the fact that he is and tries to make out with me but he has the audacity to get mad at me for pushing him off. He was lucky that I couldn't even tell his girlfriend, I didn't even know who she even is. He never told me anything about her,and he didn't like it when I asked about her.
They were dating for a year at some point, I thought he was just faking it to get me jealous or something, which I wasn't but anyways one day he got tired of me asking and showed me all the pictures with them, simply to just cover her face in every picture.What is the whole point of doing that? I was so irritated with him, for a whole year I had no clue who she was.not even with my FBI skills could Find her. I looked on his social media for anyone that could be her plus his friends didn't know who she was and it couldn't be anyone at school because I'm always with him.
I suspected that it could be someone younger or older than him or her. Even though Aaron has his 'looks' he's the definition of idiot. Just like Angel, Aaron cheated on her.That day he was acting so weird he even tried to cover up the nail marks on his skin as well as bruises, once he got home with me he immediately told me about the cheating yet he didn't shed a single tear. His body language didn't show he was guilty so that was the first time we had a heated argument. I had to hit him with the truth.