Why did I met you? (Discontinued)

Mine and Only mine

Y/N's POV

He kicks his door open revealing his office. He locks the door then throws me on the couch.

"What the fuck was that?!" I screamed. Furious as shit I dare going against him.

"You should ask yourself that brat! You should think before you go throwing yourself at someone!" Throwing myself?!

"YOU WERE THE ONE WHO FUCKING THREW ME ON THIS MOTHER FUCKING DAMN COUCH! AND WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU CARE EVEN IF I DID THROW MYSELF TO SOMEONE?!" I screamed as I stood up infront of him. Despite his shortness I was shorter then him. His fuming breath touches my forehead. He looks at me, his steely grey eyes were dark. He didn't talk all he did was stare at me.

I hit his chest hard as hard as I can.

"TELL ME?! Why does it concerns you?! Isn't it better if I were happy? Isn't it good that Hanji won't be begging for Erwin to add your paper work because I was unhappy? Isn't this what you wanted?!" I shouted and he looks away.

"No. I didn't want this. In fact I don't care how much paper work I have just to see you! I won't fucking care if you didn't let him kiss you! I won't fucking care if you were just friends!" What in the fucking world is he talking about? Is he out of his mind?

"But I did care! Because of your own god damn doing!" He shouted and I cut him off.

"You didn't need to care! And what in the fucking walls are you talking about?! Kiss me? Who the fuck kissed me? Tell me!" I shouted looking at him straight in the eyes and was expecting him to shout again but he didn't. He sigh and reached for me but I slaped his hand away.

"After all the shouting you want to console me? Are you crazy?" I shouted backing off but fell onto the couch. His hands were surrounding me as he look me in the eyes and I look at his my tears were about to stream but then...

"Y/N. Listen to me.. Im sorry." w-what? He what is this? Im not falling for this! I tried to free myself while crying again but he wraps his arms around me and brought me to his bed. I stoped struggling, I felt comfortable.. safe.

I calmed myself down. Maybe its better if we just sit and talk like normal people like normal cadet and capatain.

"Finally.. you calmed down." He said sitting next to me. His eyes looks tired why did I just notice that?

"Sorry I was being a bastard, a jerk. Last night and today. Im sorry.. I just- Im not familiar with this thing. This feeling where you just smile and I can't help but stare and when you cry I can't help but to pry. I can't handle you like other people.. I want to touch you even the slightest bit. Did you remember that night? When we were in the dark? I can't help but smile" What is he saying.. does he.. no Im crazy he's apologizing. But this sounds more like a confession..?

"Last night, I didn't know what to say. I thought I was caring for myself but I also cared about you. Everything about you, how you were feeling and those lips were only meant to laugh and smile. That flustered face that I thought I was the only one who would manage to do that to you gives me pride. But yesterday when I saw his lips touches your skin I can't keep my mind off of it." So.. he saw me with Jean?

"And when you agreed to sleep with him. That just made me go crazy.. I stay up till dawn looking through my window wishing your lights were turn on and you were in there singing. But you didn't and I knew you were with that horse face. It made me felt mad and I started comparing you with my favourite broom this morning." He chuckled and I can't help but laugh. His favourite broom?

"Believe me I love that broom! Then when you paired up with him and how happy you were with him. Close and you let him hug you and I was.." He stops searching for and I look at him and he looks at me.