FUXK Yo FEELINS

When Things Fall Apart...

Myah P.O.V

"Its your fucking fault" I screamed at Trey. "The fuck you mean its my fault its her own fault she the one clumsy as fuck" he yelled back at me.

"You just like daddy dont give a dam about nobody but your dam self you gone for ever be lonely that fucking girl loved you with every bone in her body she never asked you for a dam thing but you treat her like this if she dies God forbid but i dont want you anywhere near her funeral" i said hoping i talked some since into him.

I looked over to Joslyn sleeping so peacefully in that hospital i know she gone go crazy when she find out she lost the baby plus Trey acting like that.

Trey self centered ass stormed out the room.

And E came in and grabbed me by the hand sat me in his lap. "She gone be okay but i swear to you i didnt know trey had nobody upstairs he told me he was gone about a hour before Jo came" he explained.

"Dam i cant belive i lost my first nephew" i said.

"How you know it was a boy" E asked curiously.

"She was four months and the doc told me"  i said.

"Oh yeah...but Carlos called and he needs us back in Brazil by next week".

I nodded and got up and gave Jo and tight hug and kiss.

Joslyn P.O.V

I woke up in a hospital bed hospital gown and with Ivs in my arm.

I was alone to my suprise. Then Mya walked in i sent her a warm smile. But she just stared at me. "What happen" i asked. She walked over to me and said "im sorry

"For what girl but guess what" i said still excited about the baby.

"What" she said looking up at me with tears in her eyes.

"Im having a baby too" i said.

She grabbed me and shook her head. Then i got worried.

Whats worng you not happy and why in the hell am i in this hospital.

"Jo he's gone" she yelled crying.

I shook my head in disbelief. "Mya what you mean" i yelled.

"Im sorry Jo they tried he gone" she said crying.

"No Mya No i just found out he can't be" I said getting hysterical.

I pushed her off me "Mya its not fair he was suposed to live I was gonna be a perfect mommy" i cried.

She pulled me into a tight hug. Then everything came back to me it's Treys fault.

Speaking of the devil he walked in like not a dam thing happened.

When i looked eyes with him i seen red. I snatched the IV out of my arm and attacked him. Punching slapping straching and kicking was my only relief at the moment. "I hope you happy and i hope she was worth your son" i said tossing him the ultrasounds. With nothing else said he walked out.

Trey P.O.V

The words Joslyn spoke hit me like a ton of bricks. A son... My first and now my last.

I will never love another women like i loved Jo. But at the moment i wasn't thinking.

So I drove straight home and grabbed a bottle of Hennessey. Not wanting to feel the physical nor emotional pain I drank the whole bottle.

Thinking about what if was all that ran through my mind.

At moments I heard Jo calling my name. And i could see her but when i got up to go she would fade away. Drunk as ever I dosed off.

Daddy I heard someone call. I turned around to see a small little boy who looked like me but had Jo's eyes. He ran to me and hugged my legs. I picked him and held him so tight. "Your smushing me daddy" he said wiggling out of my arms. "Daddy why didnt you want me" he asked. "I do but i did some bad things to make mommy feel bad" i explained. "Oh" was all he said. "But God said well meet again but ill see you later" he said disappearing into a bright light.

I woke up my head was booming and I had a huge weight on my shoulders.

Joslyn P.O.V

It's been a hour since Trey left. Still sniffling and crying my doctor came in the room. "Ms.Johnston" he greeted. I didnt say anything nor move. "Yes thats her" Mya spoke up for me. "Well I have some good news" he said. I sat up with full attention. "There was a mix up and your baby is fine no injuries or anything of that nature" he said. Mya looked at me and I looked at her. She jumped up and snatched me into a tight hug. "Congratulations Ms.Johnston" the doctor said closing my door.

"We gotta call E &..." I stopped in my words.  "Its okay we'll just tell E she said rubbing my belly. I smiled at instantly got on my knees and thanked God.