Lento

Chapter 13.

"Or. Or you could keep it quiet." Lucy says.

"How would i do that? You know if i get a girlfriend i would wanna spread it everywhere." You say.

"I know but all you gotta do is wait another year and a day." Lucy says.

"Yeah. Supposing we last that long." You say.

"I trust you will." Lucy says.

You sit down and burry your head into your hands.

"Just talk to her." Lucy says.

You sigh.

"When she comes over, talk to her. I mean it Y/n." Lucy says.

You nod. You and Lucy sit and watch a movie together. Lauren turns up again. Bobby manages to unlock the door. Lauren sees you and Lucy fast asleep with her head on your shoulder.

"Tell her I'll be over tomorrow. I really need to talk to her." Lauren says.

"I will." Bobby says.

"Thanks." Lauren says.

The next morning, you wake up to see Lucy fast asleep next to you. You shake her and she wakes up.

"What?" Lucy asks.

"You're gunna be late to school." You say.

"Ugh. I think ima stay here." Lucy says.

"No no. You gotta go to school and get educated so you can educate my stupid ass." You say.

Lucy laughs. You stand up and help her up.

"When Lauren comes over, talk to her. Okay?"

You nod and she leaves. Bobby walks in.

"Lauren is gunna come over later to talk to you. You gunna talk to her?" Bobby asks.

You hesitate when thinking of an answer.

"I-"

"I can tell her you're busy?" Bobby says.

"When she comes over later, talk to her. Okay."

"Y/n?"

"Yeah please tell her I'm busy." You say.

"She's not happy about it Y/n." Bobby says.

"I know but i need more time to figure out some stuff." You say.

Bobby nods. He leaves and you sit at your desk and start writing some more songs. You start whispering some lyrics. You then write them down and work off it. You eventually get this.

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood

I'm looking through my phone again, feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could help me?

It's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood

I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood

You finish and nod.

"Okay. Yeah. Thats good."

A week passes and someone knocks on your door.

"Yeah?"

"Lauren's here to see you. It's important." Bobby says.

You shake your head.

"Bobby i cant. I'm sorry but i cant. Please dont send her here." You say.

Bobby nods. He walks away. You bang your head on the desk a few times.

"Fuck." You whisper.

You grab your phone and ring Dinah.

"Y/n? Oh my god are you okay?"

"Can you come over? I really need some help right now."

"I'll be there in 10." Dinah says.

"Thank you."

The call ends. Within 10 minutes, Dinah arrives.