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A A L I Y A H
"Liyah now you good like you need anything?" Kyle said looking at me
I nodded my head.
"What you need love?" He said sitting next to me
"My blanket" I said quietly
He got up to walk over towards the closet where all of my blankets were at then walked back over to me with my blanket in his hands.
"Here" Kyle said covering me up
While we were just sitting on the couch watching a movie, that's when I placed my head on his shoulder and completely zoned out. Ever since that situation with Bryson, I haven't been myself if I'm being honest like I have been in the house. I don't eat as much like anyone who has came over to check on me has noticed that I have gotten lil smaller.
It's been a couple of days that I had Chanel in my personal space but I had my dad come get her for a week or so to spend time with her since he doesn't see her as much. I do facetime her almost every second of the day that I can and I don't need Chanel around me while I'm going through this shit, to be honest.
You're probably wondering have I talked to Bryson or has he tried to get into connection with me now the answer is no but he did try to call me a couple of times that day he slapped me now I completely blocked him. I didn't want to her anything that he had to say at all like I understand that I was in the wrong for putting my hands on him and shit. I just find it so crazy that he has been trying his best to get back with me and work on us like how are we supposed to work on us after what he did, huh? That shit has been out the fucking window like the train has left the station because I am honestly done with everything and everyone.
There will no longer be an us anymore like we will only be coparenting for Chanel sake only that is it. Just thinking bout it like what am I supposed to think when Chanel get him really mad will he ever hit her now the day that he ever abuses Chanel like let's hope not but if he ever did then that nigga will be 6'5 feet under with all his dead homies.
While I was zoned out, I didn't notice that Kyle put on Need A Sign by that nigga like I just sat there on the couch. As Kyle was smoking a blunt while taking in every word that he was currently saying right now.
You can see the pain in my eyes as soon as you see me... ___________
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B R Y S O N
Once I walked into the studio, that's when the vibe changed like I placed my notebook on the stand that I had wrote sum lyrics in then placed the headphones on. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath while letting the beat of the song take over my mind.
"Ready B" Shawn said looking at me
I nodded my head.
I hope she can see that I'm grown Her body got me in the zone (Can't leave her alone) We ain't gotta speak on the phone As soon as I see her, it's on (Can't leave her alone) I like to look at it while I'm up in it These lights, we keeping 'em on (On) She got tired of sleepin' alone (Alone)
On God, I can't leave her alone (Right?) I do not wanna leave her alone (Nah) Her body got me in the zone (Can't leave her alone) We ain't gotta speak on the phone As soon as I see her, it's on (Can't leave her alone) I like to look at it while I'm up in it These lights, we keeping 'em on She got tired of sleepin' alone (Alone) On God, I can't leave her alone
While I was into the song, that's when I zoned out to start thinking bout everything that has been happening since I met Aaliyah. I have made her life a living hell like what if I was never in her life then we wouldn't have what we have now. Aaliyah probably would have still been at her dads still getting blamed for something that wasn't even her fault. I probably would have continued being in the streets or in jail because she's the only person that actually motivated me to do what I am doing right now.
I just wish that I could go back in time to change everything that I have fucked up to make things right like they always say that you won't miss what you have til it's gone.
"That shit was dope cuh" Billy said looking at me
"Preciate it nigga" I said sitting down
Billy turned to look at me trying to read my body language and he started nodding his head knowing what was really wrong with me.
"You miss her, don't you?" He said crossing his arms
"Yes but I fucked up for good this time now she with this nigga name Blake or Chance shit like I don't know but I don't know how to feel about it" I said sighing
"How you know she really with that nigga?" He said leaning back
"I went to her house to drop off Nene and that fucking opening the damn door for us like he was the stepdaddy or sum shit" I said shaking my head
"Damn stepdaddy energy right there buddy, huh?" Billy said smirking
"Bitch fuck you" I said flicking him off
"Yo mama hoe but just give her sum time to get how she is feeling together now think bout what if you were in her place then what would have you done and felt during that situation, huh? You honestly would have felt hurt and betrayed cuz the person that has been trying work things out with you then slaps you out the blue. They made promises to never abuse you or treat you like their parents did to you" Billy said shaking his head
"Like that famous quote says you won't miss what you have till it's gone...
