▫️darkness ▫️ A UshiTen Fanfic

seven

the funeral was the worst part of it all. I couldnt even see him one last time.

I couldnt see him grow and I couldnt even see him in his last moments.

I cried a lot. I cried so much. because it got so much darker once he left.

not only did I lose Bingo but i post my lover and best friend. the only one i relied on.

i was placed in a care hospital seeing as i had no family or friends who were willingly going to take care of me.

I rarely talk. I eat when food is served and I spend most of my days sleeping ir crying in the room they gave me.

*time skip*

it's been about 2 years since Wakatoshi's death. I dream of him. every night.

and as surprising as it sounds, I see him. I always see him. hes always there.

I've also been diagnosed with new things.

depression, anxiety, and I hallucinate. that's what the doctors say.

but it's fine. cause I wont be depressed any longer.

i felt my way up the stairs and to the roof.

god I wish I could see the beautiful sky right about now. I opened the roof door when I felt the braille letters that said "roof."

I felt my way towards the edge. I felt tears fall down my face.

I stood there on the edge. and I looked to my left.

and there he was.

standing there.

smiling.

that same smile I only dreamed of ever seeing again.

that same smile that my shining hope always had.

that smile that I will finally see again.

i looked back ahead of me.

in this darkness, there is only darkness.

there is but one light. and that is my hope. Ushijima Wakatoshi.

which was stolen from me.

the same one I'm going to see again.

and I smiled. I truly smiled the first one I had in 2 years.

and I stepped off without an arm to hold me back or catch me.

in this darkness.....

I found peace.

in this darkness.....

end.