Run Into You

13

"where are you?"

I parked my car in the basement, while talking to yerin on my phone. The singing category will be happening today, I hope my eyes were not swollen.

I breathed so deeply while leaning my forehead on the steering wheel. I ended the call without answering yerin. They didn't know, I didn't tell my friends still. The death of mom was still private, only dad, and the people inside the house knews about it.

I don't know If I can sing today, I have no sleep, I'm tired of crying every night, it's like releasing all the pain but it's still heavy inside me.

I heard my phone rang and I picked it up again without looking at the caller I.D.

"hey, you okay? You hang up." it was yerin.

"yeah.. I'm in the basement. See you." I said and ended the call.

I walked out from my car and entered our campus. A lot of students were looking at me, maybe because of my eyes and I didn't go to school yesterday.

I just ignored all the whispers and stares and went to the auditorium to check the keyboard I am using later. The singing category will be 3 hours from now but yerin told me that I should go here earlier so I could check the instrument I am using, and also I could practice.

I took out my water inside my bag and drank before pressing a key from the keyboard. I adjusted to the sound I wanted.

"hey, Eunbi.."

I didn't turn around to face her, I just played a random song with the keyboard in front of me.

"why didn't you call and text me yesterday that you're not going to school?" she asked but ignored her again.

"did you fight? Jungkook and you? Because I've seen him with Eunbi jung yesterday.." he said that made me press a wrong key.

"why? Is he cheating on me?" I finally asked in my cold tone.

I heard her laughed nervously. "you're so quick to judge, of course he's not."

They're all the same. If they're unhappy, they cheat. If they're attracted even if they're in relationship, they cheat.

Everyhting is very traumatic for me. Seeing mom crying because dad cheated on her, seeing mom being miserable because of dad. Love, it's not really the love that we imagined. It's all about pain, jealousy, insecurities that could lead to being miserable.

"did you fight?" yerin asked again.

I shook my head. I can't remember that we fought. After dropping me home that night, it's our last talk. He messaged me a lot, but I'm mourning for my mom's death so I didn't reply to anyone.

"have you broken up?"

Again, I shook my head. I felt his hand touched my shoulder that made me face her. Her brows furrowed when she looked me in the eyes.

"you cried.." it's a statement.

I looked away and fake a smile. Should I tell her? She's been my friend since we're freshmen. I didn't even tell moonbin about what happened to mom. I sucked.

"let's eat before the competition?" I tried changing the topic.

She stayed silent until we reached the cafeteria. I looked at the food in front of me but I have no appetite. I just took the orange juice and paid it before sitting in the vacant seat.