Close as stranger-Calum hood

Chapter 2

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all.......

I close my laptop and put in my side table. I can feel tears falling down my cheeks. I wish he didn't block me out. I cried. I take my special box from and open it and look through all the photos, I smile a little as I pick up a photo of me and cal on Christmas the year before I left both wearing our matching holiday sweaters that we been wearing since we were five they still fit because our moms got us the biggest sizes so we could wear them forever. I wear mine everyday to sleep under the hoodie Calum gave me when it was poring out and I forgot mine. I look through photo after photo remember all the times me and cal had together. Now look at us he doesn't remember me traveling the world with his band opening for one direction which I found out yesterday Nd me just sitting in my room crying over a boy who doesn't even remember me. I hear my laptop beep. I grab it and open to see a new YouTube notification by 5sos lyrics.Close as strangers by 5sos concert video. I click on it and I see all the boys which I found out all there names. I see Calum come up to the mic.

"Hey guys I wrote this song for some who moved away from me a couple of years ago she was my best friend and I broke a promise with her so I'm sorry and I hope you're watching this you know who you are"Calum says music start to play

Six weeks since I've been away
And now you're sayin' everything has changed
And I'm afraid that I might be losing you

Now every night that I spend alone
Kills me thinking of you on your own
And I wish I was back home next to you

Oh everyday
You feel a little bit further away
And I don't know what to say
Are we wasting time
talking on a broken line
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers

I won't give up
even though it hurts so much
Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers
Late night calls and another text
Is this as good as we're gonna get?
Another timezone taking me away from you
Livin' dreams and fluorescent lights
While you and I are running out of time
But you know that I'll always wait for you

Oh everyday
You feel a little bit further away
and I don't know what to say
Are we wasting time
talking on a broken line
Telling you I
haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
I won't give up
even though it hurts so much
Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers
On the phone
I can tell that you wanna move on
Through the tears
I can hear that I shouldn't have gone
Every day, gets harder to stay away from you
So tell me are we wasting time
talking on a broken line
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
Wasting time
talking on a broken line
telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
I won't give up
Even though it hurts so much
Every night, I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers
6 months since I went away
And to know everything has changed
But tomorrow I'll be coming back to you

"I hope you heard that I miss you so much syd-bear "Calum says as a tear falls from his cheek

"I miss you too cal-bear"I say as I close my laptop as tears stream down my face
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