What Is It With You

Home sweet home

July 23rd 2015
Pennsylvania
Kelly's POV

The boys and I landed in Pittsburgh. I was so excited to see Savannah and Dallas. When we came out we saw my mom and dad standing there with the babes.

Bo and Tate took off. I smiled as I carried our carry ons. I walked over and the boys and the twins were all hugging. My dad grabbed the bags and hugged me.

"Welcome home Kells." He said.

I knelt down and the twins came running to me. I picked them both up they both had their arms around my neck.

"God did I miss you too. I love you." I said.
"Love mommy." Savannah said.
"I love you sweetheart."
"Me daddy?" She asked.
"Sweetie daddy is still working."
"Noooooo!" She screamed and started crying. My dad picked her up.

"Let's go get some ice cream I know it's not as good as daddy but it's close right." He said.
"Me me me!" Dallas yelled.
"Come on." He said scooping him up too.
"Coming boys?" He said to Bo and Tate.

My mom gave me a hug.

"I'm so happy to have you home sweetie." She said to me.
"It feels so good to be home." I said hugging her tight.

We let go.

"How was your time with Luke?" She asked me.
"So amazing." I said smiling and looking down.
"Did he gave a good birthday?"
"I think so." I said laughing.
"Listen are you guys being safe?" She asked me as we were walking to the boys.
"Uhm... what do you mean by that?" I asked confused.

"Like condoms sweetie or birth control." She said I froze.
"Uh...."
"Kelly." She said.
"I know I know mom but I be my tubes tied..."
"You know that only works so much sweetie.... if you get an ectopic pregnancy you could never have anymore kids." She said.
"I know... but he doesn't want anymore anyways so..." I said upset.
"What...?"
"He's content with the boys and the twins... then we took his nieces and nephew in... it's just. He's done. I get it he's 39... he'll be 56 when the twins graduate highschool. 60 when it's college depending what they go for. "
"Yeah but you'll  be 38 when the graduate highschool..." she said.

I thought about it. I'd be a year younger than what he is now.

"It's okay..." I said walking again.
"If you want it then push for it Kelly..." she said to me.
"I can't push for it mom... I'm content with the twins plus I had such a hard pregnancy and those miscarriages... I can't go through another miscarriage. I know he doesn't want to because he's worried for me. I get it and that's okay. I love him and as long as I have him I'm happy." I said upset.
"Kelly...." she said.
"Mom just stop. Okay..."

We met up with my dad and the kids. We all went out and climbed into the car. My mom sat in the back with the twins so I sat up front and the boys were in the third row. I put my headphones in. I put on a playlist of my favorite songs of Lukes. Too Damn Young came on. I remind the first time he played the for me and told me he wrote it for me.

I decided to text him.

Me: hi....

Lukey💙: hey beautiful what's up? You seem off.

Me: my fucking mother... asked me about kids and said I should push you if I really want more and blah blah blah.... I'm so sick of it....